Months - Acoustic

Every time I think of the memories it leaves a bittersweet taste
I don't like the feeling but the circumstances have made it stale to date
Your face framed within my home is awfully familiar
Yet knowing you don't belong is its own killer

Washed away tears and your old shirts
Left your toys here 'cause the past, it hurts
We both messed up but who has the worse end
I don't know what message I'm trying to send

So I'm sitting on the main front while you fight your war
Each scar holds a memory I'll cherish it even more
Back in my base, I knew it would crumble
But I miss the days when everything was once simple
Now I need to fight my own battles
This next step's gonna hurt, but it matters
Every hug, every kiss, every spoken word I'll remember
And I'll still wish you a happy birthday in September

I'm guessing this was all for the best
Our past relationship was truly a mess
I pushed your limits while you ignored mine
And our love, it faded with space and time

Crying over nothing and middle school issues
Even if you act like this I still think I miss you
I messed up so you could have the good ending
This path I'm on has turns, it's always bending

So I'm still fighting on the main front while you win your war
Each scar holds a memory I'll cherish it even more
Back in my base, I knew it would crumble
But I miss the days when everything was once simple
Now I need to fight my own battles
This next step's gonna hurt but it matters
Every hug, every kiss, every spoken word I'll still carry
And I'll still wish you a happy birthday in February

Tell me even when I know you've hurt me
Tell me even when I know you loved me
Tell me even when I know you cared for me
I can't decide if you were right and I was wrong
My vision seems fogged I can't pin a point on
If this damned version of a girl is too far gone
Or if I'm just conditioned to forgive those who are too strong
I've held onto those who aren't good for me
Yet I close my eyes, they're all I can see
Hid my scars so they could be happy
But now my life is drained and I am empty
I dug my own grave just so I could ponder
Why I'm left behind, a lone soul to wander
A burden I will be until I force a sorry
Even if it's fake it makes them think they've won me

So I'm still fighting on the main front while you win your war
Each scar holds a memory, why cherish it anymore
Back in my base, I knew it would crumble
But I miss the days when everything was once simple
Now I need to fight my own battles
This next step's gonna hurt, but it matters
Every hug, every kiss, every spoken word I'll still carry
But there's no happy birthday in January