Choosing Myself / Still Alone - Acoustic

Ooh
Oh

Let me finish, let me finish talkin'
Let me get this off my chest
I'm no stranger, you know me well
But it feels like we just met

I'm just tryin' to cope with the impossibilities
I wish were possibilities, it's like I'm in a dream
I know you say you want me, but you're too afraid of happy
That hurts me, it scares me, but this is reality

Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me
Tellin' me lies
Like I'm makin' this up
Like this is insanity
Like this ain't reality

Oh, my mind is playin' tricks on me
I won't believe it
I won't believe it, not for one second
I don't believe it
No, I don't believe it, but I still got questions
I wanna believe you
I want to believe you, but you're not helping
Wish you were see-through
I wish you could see me, wish I could see you, oh

I wish that I could free your mind
And sometimes I wish that we could just rewind time
Oh, what if I never knew, oh, ooh
I just want you
And I want you to want you, too

I'm hoping that you'll change your mind, yeah-yeah
I'm praying you'll try to try
To be happy for once
Girl, you deserve to be happy for once
I just want you to be happy for once
Just once, just once

I saw you
Didn't you come alive when you looked in my eyes?
Oh, I saw you come alive, yeah
You can just choose, you can decide
You can decide, you can decide
You can decide, oh, ooh
You can just choose, you can decide, yeah

Mm, I'm so afraid to lose you
That I'm losing myself
I'm so afraid to choose you
So I'm choosing myself, oh
I'm so afraid to lose you, lose you
'Cause I'm finding myself in you, oh
Still every day that I choose you
I'm choosing myself, oh

Deep down, you'll remember me
But even if you don't choose me, even if you don't choose me
I'm choosing myself
I'm choosing, I'm choosing, choosing myself, oh
It's about time, yeah
It's about time, it's about time
It's about time, it's about time
Don't make me choose by myself

I pray that you'll choose me, I pray that you'll choose me
Oh, oh, I pray that you'll choose me, I pray that you'll choose me
'Cause I'm choosing happy, the real me
I'm choosing the freedom I feel when I look in these eyes
Yeah, I'm choosing myself, took a long time
But I'm choosing myself, it'll take a long time
I'm choosing myself, took a long time
But I'm choosing myself, oh
Mm, mm

I'm a vault, keep it closed
Hide the pain so nobody knows
Smilin' and showin' my teeth
I'm just deep in the misery
Suck it up, let it go
It'll pass, they'll never know
Trying to rehearse the lies
I've been tellin' myself for this whole time

Like, "You don't really feel this way
This is just a passing phase"

So many choices made so I wouldn't be alone
Still alone, I'm still alone
In a crowd, I'm still alone
Maybe what's done is done
And even if I get out this one
I'm still alone, I'm still alone
Here I am, I'm still alone

Ooh, it gets lonely, that's how the story goes
It gets lonely, yeah

I don't care, I've had enough
Maybe the brave thing is givin' up
I always stay too long
'Cause I never learned how to move on
I won't pretend that this is right
To live a life in a lie tryin' to please the crowd
But I'm lettin' myself down

No, I don't have to live this way
I just need some bravery to say what I gotta say

I made the choice I made, so I wouldn't be alone
I'm still alone, I'm still alone
It didn't work, I'm still alone
Maybe what's done is done
And even if I get out this one
Still alone, I'm still alone
Here I am, I'm still alone

So many choices made so I wouldn't be alone
I'm still alone, I'm still alone
That's what I get, I'm still alone
And maybe what's done is done
Even if I get out this one
I'll stand alone, I'll stand alone
I'll pay the price to stand alone

Oh, that's how the story goes
And I'll pay the price, I'll pay the price to stand alone
Yes, I will
That's how the story goes
I don't get to choose my story, oh

I'm not lonely, this is how the story goes
I'm not lonely, oh, ooh
I'm not lonely, ooh
I'm not lonely, I'm not afraid of lonely
No, I'm no longer afraid of me, oh
No, I'm not afraid of lonely
No, no, no, no, no, I'm no longer afraid of me
I kinda like me, yeah

So, I'm choosing myself
Oh, I'm choosing myself
Ooh, choosing myself
Hey, I'm choosing myself
Oh, ooh