God's Strongest Soldier

They say they love you
Till its time to show it
And when you're at your lowest
They say they ain't even know it
They say they ain't even notice

wake up I feel nothing
400mg just to function
Take a step back, easy does it
I need help, but I don't want it

I look up to the sky
The wind is at my shoulders
I fight the urge to cry
I feel I'm growing older
My breath turns straight to ice
The ocean's frozen over
There's no will to survive
Am I God's Strongest Soldier?

Slipping in and out of dreams I cannot recall
The one that I remember, I'm an angel and I fall
And it feels like heaven's gates are closed to me
The sight of them blinds me, I fall to my knees

Somehow it takes all my breath away
Confused, and not quite lucid
I stare right at my face
I'll drink up the anhydrous and then throw down some more
Its never been this hard to get through one week before

I always thought that I'd die in vain
That every trace of my name would fade
That all that I made would fade, decay
In a grave that I just dug today

But that's overthinking it, over drinking it, overflow again
Do it all for you, and just make it true, don't worry about the end

Cause I ain't dead yet

I look up to the sky
The wind is at my shoulders
I fight the urge to cry
I feel I'm growing older
My breath turns straight to ice
The ocean's frozen over
There's no will to survive
Am I God's Strongest Soldier?

And I hate to say "I can't today"
I don't feel worthy, so here I'll stay
These habits don't seem to have an end
God's Strongest Soldier failed again

I look up to the sky
The wind is at my shoulders
I feel no urge to die
I know I'm growing colder
My breath turns straight to ice
The ocean's frozen over
I know I will survive
God has no strongest soldier