Dear Lola

Dear departed
Quick we seem to forget
I wonder if it's really all that after death
There's questions I would ask about that scar on your lungs
Was it worth it?
Your smells in my nose from then you hugged me for the last time
I never knew it'd be the last time
Wanted to ask you bout the past time
I coulda used the guidance

I graduated like I should I know that you came from the dirt
When you left, I numbed the pain with the hurt
I hardly knew that I needed you like that
But just like you see now
Living got harder making the carefree choice
It's my fault
Falling for every decoy
And I never got the chance to ask
Before your carnival cruise deployed

But would you be proud of me
Would you be proud of what I become
I never had a Lola like you to put me on all the ish I didn't know
I should've known
Would you be proud of me
Would you be proud of what I become
Cuz you left me alone but
I know you didn't do it on purpose
I'll make it worth it now that I know

Now that I know
Now that I know
Now that I know

I never got to say salamat po
You coulda taught me more about love
Being grateful for every blessing
My cup was full
Before we even talked about perspectives
Of a young man like me and the difference between the elderly
You had four daughters and they're 'bout to come of your age
How would I do if I had lost you at an older age
Maybe I'd quit n be piss poor being boy
Halfway to totally morally destroyed
Prolly lining up toys
N moving in and out the shadows of a polyester carpet
Speeding past Vallejo with no intention to stop it
Making reservations at a table for one and what have I done
But leave another hole we gotta patch up
Like when it rains it pours and since you passed us
You'll never fade away from memory
I gotta say you'll never be a day over seventy
But hey if I could ask yuh

Would you be proud of me
Would you be proud of what I become
I never had a Lola like you to put me on all the ish I didn't know
I should've known
Would you be proud of me
Would you be proud of what I become
Cuz you left me alone but I know
You didn't do it on purpose
I'll make it worth it now that I know



Credits
Writer(s): Erik Nicholson
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