Stranger In The Mirror

Titanticlly manic
Pulling apart at the seams
Not sure who I am
But life ain't hard as it seems
Cauterize veins
To make it Through each day
Didn't love who I was
So I changed the name
To escape the shame
Of the person I been
But sometimes I be thinkin
The new me worse then him
Cuz I still don't know
Who this person is
Looking back at me
In these mirror reflections
Guess I'll learn as I go
Burnin it slow
Not sure what I'm worth
But know it's more
Than my weight in gold
And So it goes
Life like a light
Fading slow
Only shining bright
As the shade will show
Covering up
Confidence
Feel like it's
Never enough
Accomplishments
Thinkin I could do better
I could be more
But If I'm At war with myself
How I settle the score

Looking at the stranger in the mirror
Lost inside the thoughts are never clear

March 15
Spent the weekend in my head
Talking to myself
Me myself an I
Pushing
Fight for the belt
Put the mask away
The temperature goin make it melt
When the pressure really weighs
Is when you betting on yourself
Put my city on this
Told em call me quill
Tap the ink inside my pen
Sometimes it overspill
Elevate my pain
Till im feeling lighter than a feather
Nah this aint no billy when I play
No I play like happy Gil
Never had no father figure
Nah no uncle Phil
All we had was music that we played
On out the blue stretched stereo
That we played when was little
Remember CD's dreaming
Yeah one day that will be quill
Since 21
I aint keep it PC like Adele
Took a bite out of forbidden fruits
Now my Adams apple
Spit that tree of knowledge
For itself
Grew these roots out for myself
Lying if I said
This all was for someone else
Judgement in reflection
If I saw this man as an adolescent
Would I want to be him
Or someone else
Telling me I changed
But im still the same kid
Who spent his days
In side
Screaming out for help

Looking at the stranger in the mirror
Lost inside the thoughts are never clear

The vision is clear
The mission is clear
Ambitious when the path is lacking
And success is feared
No hands on the wheel
Guiding directions steered
Too many questions
Lessons testing my will
What is love
What is trust
Two skins one man
The math just don't add up
To what I want it to be
To what I want them to see
No poker face When you wear
Your heart on your sleeve
Bleeding to breathe
Feel like breathing to bleed
Self deprecation
Routing for the enemy
Depression had me low
Tryin to put an end to me
But I failed every attempt
Successfully
Living on borrowed time
Calendar numbered days
Low self esteem
Self belief come in waves
But the frequency dips
And gets worse with age
Will I ever escape
Can i break these chains
Did I forge them myself
Creating my own hell
Through poor decisions
And a hatred of self
Doubting my potential
Mistaking money for wealth
And being to damn stubborn
To just ask for help

Looking at the stranger in the mirror
Lost inside the thoughts are never clear
Looking at the stranger in the mirror
Lost inside the thoughts are never clear