Lampkin Lane

I've felt alone since you left when I was 16
Heard you're doing alright, got' yourself a guy
Yeah, I'm doing fine
Could you tell I'm lying?
But I just keep trying
Sleep means I survived
And I'm out at the park
When it's far too dark
Pull myself together
But it's still so hard
When I see things that remind me of you
I can't help but freeze, I don't know what I'm doing
Things were said, weighing me down
They claw their way inside, hold a permanent frown
I'm constantly stressed, trauma running my mouth
Simply being myself feels impossible now

And I was 16, and you were 20
Looking back now, it's kinda funny
How we really seemed to think we would work out
But I was just a kid, having a breakdown
And I was 16, and you were 20
Your hands were cold, my eyes were running
I didn't care about what happened to me
As long as I gave you whatever you needed

Feel the heat in my veins
And the pain through it all
See the gray in my hair
When the tears start to fall
Catatonically clinging
Distracted in time
See the whites of my eyes
And that green in the night
It's not all an act
I wouldn't wish for this
Holding dumb fucking fortunes
In the palms of my fist
I gave up hope on rebuilding
Some days it's all fresh
It still never enough
But I'm just trying my best

And I was 16, and you were 20
Looking back now, it's kinda funny
How we really seemed to think we would work out
But I was just a kid, having a breakdown
And I was 16, and you were 20
You were so cool, I was so clumsy
I didn't care about what happened to me
As long as I gave you whatever you needed

They say the past is the past
Forget about it
You know I would if it were easy
But years later it sticks
I think I'm fucked up now
Little changed, I admit
But I'm still standing here
I just wanna exist

And I was 16, and you were 20
Looking back now, it's kinda funny
How we really seemed to think we would work out
But I was just a kid, having a breakdown
And I was 16, and you were 20
You were so cool, but I was so clumsy
I didn't care about what happened to me
As long as I gave you whatever you needed



Credits
Writer(s): Joe Barbarulo
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