Feel Something

All these thoughts inside my head
I keep wasting my time
Wasting my life

And I swear that I just wanna be happy for once
But I know I might just go with the shot of a gun
I keep stumbling and falling over and over again
And I always end up alone in the end

Cause I have
Lost control over myself
No one would even tell
That I'm going through hell

But all that really matters is that I'm drowning in pain
So I Just go outside when it's about to rain
Cause my tears have dried up
But my fears keep showing up
So I gotta find a way
For all my pain
To wash away

And I cannot even cry cause I have tears no more
So I just go outside and stand still in the storm
Letting the raindrops fall from my face
So I can pretend I'm feeling something

I'd give anything
Just to feel something
There is nowhere to hide
From these demons inside
I can't take it no more
I cannot feel no more

I'd give anything
Just to feel something
There is nowhere to hide
From these demons inside
I can't take it no more
I cannot feel no more

Just to feel something

And I swear I've lost count of all the times that I've run
From all these demons that are always out for a hunt
They keep on chasing me over and over again
And in this fight my only weapons are paper and pen
Cause I am
A prisoner in this cell
No one would even tell
Been hiding in my shell

And after all this time
I'm still trapped in these chains
The Sun will never shine
I feel it in my veins

The only thing that I can feel inside my brain
Is all this pain and there's no way that this can change
And I'm not gonna lie
Can't tell if I wanna die
Or if I wanna stay alive

And with all of these medicines that lately I've been taking
Been feeling empty and numb, boy this is what I'm saying

I'd give anything
Just to feel something
There is nowhere to hide
From these demons inside
I can't take it no more
I cannot feel no more

I'd give anything
Just to feel something
There is nowhere to hide
From these demons inside
I can't take it no more
I cannot feel no more

Just to feel something
Just to feel something