Afraid to Die

They're all coming into the ring, it's a thousand to one with the odds against me
But I get a shot of adrenaline whenever I feel the pressure sting
When heads are on fire and everything hurts, my heart is beating the same
And when all the pain should be ripping me open, I'm not afraid

I used to bleed when I would fall
And now I feel nothing at all
I used to cling to precious time
And now I'm not afraid to die

Soft tongues break hard bones and swollen words mean nothing
I'm tired of betting and settling, wrestling, so sick of everyone testing me
I'm done living for someone else's something
And now that I've gone hysterical, everyone's trying to kill the animal

Letting go of the fear of the grave and the numb
Was the most liberating thing I've done
To fall and to fail is to truly live
So I crumble and rise and I crumble again

I used to bleed when I would fall
And now I feel nothing at all
I used to cling to precious time
And now I'm not afraid to die

And to this day
It still seems strange how I've
Never felt this alive

I used to bleed
When I would fall
And now I feel
Nothing at all

Nothing at all
Nothing at all
Nothing at all