Til We're Not

Don't underestimate the weight of hate
That can build up over time
We've been aware
Despite our care
One of these nights would be the last fight
I've been crying to you
We've been lying and trying to make it through
For the sake of the future we're afraid to lose

We're afraid to lose

I don't like the way you look at me
Vacantly
Like your passing right through
You don't like that I don't know how to grow
Or how to solve my mental issues
We've covered up every problem
With fleeting feelings and I'm fines
It was an easy compromise to hide
White hot lies behind blue eyes

I feel like we're getting closer
To running our car over the bridge
I feel like we're getting closer
To stepping off the dangerous ledge
I feel like we're getting closer to giving in
Get the gun
Take the final shot
The closer we get, the farther we've got
Together til we're not

You were always the logical one
Making sense of my nonsensical situations
So tell me why we've stuck together
When we've drained each other's
Personas and patience
Youre part of me, and I'm part of you
The parts of ourselves that we hate the most
So tell me why loving a life with another
Sounds harder than living one I loathe

Tell me I look tired again
Tell me I should shut up
Tell me I should just go to sleep
In the morning we can pretend
Like counting our hours
Is just like counting sheep
And you'll make a dumb joke
The one that you made in the very first week
To bring up nostalgia
To make me feel proud of
The years that we've missed
Wishing we were 18

I feel like we're getting closer
To running our car over the bridge
I feel like we're getting closer
To stepping off the dangerous ledge
I feel like we're getting closer to giving in
Get the gun
Take the final shot
The closer we get, the farther we've got
Together til we're not

And I don't know who I am
Anymore
Without the way that you've kept score
The game we play
The back and forth
Who's the one who's gonna walk out the door

And you don't know who you are
Anymore
Without the fear of god inside
The way I make you terrified
Scared to leave me
And scared to live your life

I feel like we're getting closer
To letting our story come to an end
I feel like we're getting closer
To freeing ourselves from the cage that we're in
I think it's the final time
The last goodbye
So come on baby take the shot
The closer we get, the farther we've got

I feel like we're getting closer
To running our car over the bridge
I feel like we're getting closer
To stepping off the dangerous ledge
I feel like we're getting closer to giving in
Get the gun, take the final shot
The closer we get
The farther we've got
Together til we're not