Self Awareness

Self-inflicted thoughts prevent me from going to sleep
I hope my future nice and praised throughout our history
The pictures that I paint in my mind are flowing through me
And now they'll flow through you, I hope you enjoy what you see
Here's a toast to God, drink from the chalice of wine
The darkness I've endured is slowly departing my mind
Relief is in my system, my spirit and heaven combined
I'm glad that the darkness is no longer part of my life
But soon as I think that it's done, it's not really over
Dissociations having a meeting and plans to take over
When I least expect it, she beats with me no regrets and I should've never neglected
The fact my cognitive dissonance currently unprotected
I'm gullible for depression so therapy is the next best thing
I love the sessions
Having a reflection that understands your depression is such a beautiful blessing
Hope that it's never-ending
But I should've known better
Our god is insanely clever
Creation implies destruction so nothing will last forever
It's gonna be reborn like a Phoenix rising from ashes
But when will the illusion fall down just like a feather?

Energy's origin predates the fabric of time
It's what we use to find out if we have compatible minds
I beat around the bush and occasionally fester a lie
But I'll be real as life and tell you "you are not one of the guys"
Imma let you know once, I'm not saying it twice, imma nurture my soul, I'm not saying it thrice
I'm not letting any demons venture into my soul, I've had them live inside my head for a couple of nights
Slithering around my head like a couple of lice
Their origin comes from my brain and my ties
Had to rid both of their lives I'm nice not kind
What's the expansion of self without a couple of fights?
How can you express that you've lived if you ain't even die?
How can you soar through your life if you can't even fly?
How can you live with your pain if you ain't even cried?
A recipe for hate and disaster is cooking inside
As the lesson leaves, I'll recite the general message
I'm self-aware of my surroundings and live with depression
Death is gonna come, I don't even know why I'm stressing
I should end it now, I'll purchase a Smith and a Wesson

It seems like I can't be fixed
Acceptance is a wonderful gift
It's a wonderful trick
To have up your sleeve, don't lose sight of that shit
Inevitability is a part of this shift
In conscious so your growth will always glow through your skin
Attracting many souls that you'd consider your friends
And don't forget the people that will use you and shit
Cause imma let you in on a little secret
Attracting your frequency doesn't fucking exist
If it exists, why do bad people chase you whenever you're doing good?
Exactly, man, it don't make sense
Listening to hypocrisy makes me a little tense
But I cannot change your thoughts, that's part of accepting shit
Everybody ain't gon agree with you, that's ok
Agreeing to disagree will save you in many ways
From getting your insides blown out broad day
To watching your closest friendships start to decay
Attachment is an issue, we gotta go separate ways
We walking on the same path physically, but not spiritually
I'm speaking all these facts, boy I do not know what got into me
I think it's cause I'm on a good term with all my kin you see
My brain is a UAV, constantly scanning for enemies
Just like a racist man, I swear all of you niggas dead to me
I'm out of pocket, I've been on a different level federally

You must've thought I was done
My nigga I'm never done
I'm forever the one on one
I'm intelligence in the essence of earth
You can tell by my words
You can tell by the visions that I paint, they're absurd
You must've thought I was done
My nigga I'm never done
I'm forever the one on one
I'm intelligence in the essence of earth
You can tell by my words
You can tell by the visions that I paint, they're absurd