Forever Stuck Inside This Mess I Made

So why are you so upset?
Ah, I probably sucked more today than anyone in the history of kung fu
In the history of China
In the history of sucking
And the Five
Man, you should've seen them
They totally hate me
How is Shifu ever going to turn me
Into the Dragon Warrior?

Fucking up my life
Is what I always seem to do the best
My story is a movie
That I've seen before I knew the rest
My friends say that I'm too obsessed
With all this shit up in my mind
But all my life I been the one
That people choose to leave behind

I guess it's no coincidence
Since all I see is Benjamin's
People that I've loved with all my heart
Ignored my messages
Pick my head up brush it off
And probably never mentioned it
But deep down in my soul
Just know a hole is what you left me with

I'm not like the Five
I've got no claws, no wings, no venom
Maybe I should just quit and go back to making noodles

Fitting in was something
I was never meant to do
And if I don't love who I am
How can I say I'm meant for you
And I been through relationships
Where it feel like you saving shit
Or holding back and faking it
For someone else who's sake at risk

I always sacrifice my mental health
To try to fill the love
Or think that I could deal with pain
And make a heal with drugs
But when I sleep and see you in my dreams
It's never real enough
Forever stuck inside this mess I made
Until I feel your touch

Quit? Don't quit
Noodles, don't noodles
You are too concerned with what was
And what will be
There's a saying, yesterday is history
Tomorrow is a mystery
But today is a gift
That is why it is called the present

And if I die tonight
Just know your love have meant the most to me
'Cos you stucked by my side
When I ain't had nobody close to me
Don't cry or feel depressed just know
I'm right where I'm supposed to be
And in the end I'm honestly
Just grateful that you noticed me