I Was Ungrateful so God Spoke

I hope the world finds the patience to
Understand the concept of this song
Look
I'm on a quest
To try to find myself and be the best
Me
That I can be
Never looking back to see
How far away from tree that I fell
Just knew that I was in the sky
And then I rolled down hill
Ended up in hell
Fuck it oh well
At least I didn't have a kid
Or end up in jail
But everyday I'd wake
I knew I had another chance
To pick myself up by the boots
And do another dance
Probably shoulda ran scams for the cash though
But didn't have the faith that the feds would let me pass go
Kept my head down stayed working
Hunger pains lurking
But not for food
But something for the soul that's uncertain
But nobody could help me see that I was free
To make choices that I wanted to without penalty
Inspired to do the things that I seen on a tv screen
But never knew about all the obstacles unseen
I was fooled to believe that I didn't have what it took
I was shook
Weaker rappers doing numbers
Told God nigga look
What the fuck is you doin mane
You let these niggas reign over me
Are you fucking insane
Then he told me
Hold up my child who the fuck are you talking to
Did you just forget all the shit
That I just fuckin brought you through
Mane let me talk to you
Let me take a walk with you
Let me show you all the shit I did for you
You thought was you
Back when you was just a lad
Before you had your pen and pad and you was bad
And you was the second child
After a stillborn your mama had
Nigga I broke that condom
When yo dad was in yo mama ass
She said that you belonged to someone else nigga
Don't make me laugh
Showed your auntie
Yo baby picture up in yo gramma class
She asked her could she take it home
She took it home and brought it back
Confirmed to yo gramma you was her brother's child
Wasn't for that miracle
Wouldna known that for a fuckin while
Yet and still you here complaining
Damn shame ain't it
Can't even get a thank you that you even made it
But anyways let's keep this story going
You was three when you snuck outside
Without yo mama knowing
Chasing yo grandparents
What if they woulda kept on going
And they didn't look in the rear view
To see you running behind them
With yo sippie cup crying
What about when you was five
And you was riding in that buggie
Then you flipped and hit yo head
I coulda took yo head from you
Or that time that Josh
Had hit you cross yo nose
With that hoe
A half a second sooner
Coulda took yo mothafuckin soul boy
Or what about that time
That you and Trey was riding behind
That suv that started shooting cross the street
Nigga
Or the time that dude had
Pulled that nine on you and Nard
Cuz y'all was talking to them hoes
Gone stand there like y'all fuckin hard
Ha
You must have forgot about all them times
You was fuckin them random girls
Didn't even know who you was goin behind
But you out here worried bout not having kids
Nigga I let you live
And that's the only thanks you willing to give nigga
Or do you remember when you
Was hanging outside that club
Yo daddy told you duck
And bullets flew through glass
Right where yo head was
How many times I left you to suffer
When you fell down
The good people up in your corner
That I kept aroud
And if I'm being honest which I fuckin am
They coulda gave up on you long time ago
Way you let'em down
But yet you still outchea complaining
Like a fuckin clown
I gave you super powers
And you threw'em on the fuckin ground
Could jump up out the gym
The fastest nigga in yo town
No matter what you eat
Body looks like a God year round
But fuck it
You said you wanted to rap
So I made you the greatest
You blinded by weaker artists
That's doin numbers on playlists
Just focus baby
Stop being lazy and get consistent
Name a single time somebody heard yo music
And wasn't fuckin with it
You been proving to yourself
That you better than niggas
The world may not know of you yet
But you veteran with it
Look
I let dj Khalid win with weak ass albums
Even he was smart enough
To know that he ain't do it
God did