Then I'd be Happy

Awake to a reality
That I don't wanna be in
So I sit in silence
Until the voices start speaking
I know that I'm broken
I know that I'm damaged
The wounds are still open
But somehow I manage
To fake a smile
And put on a happy face
When I'm in my dreams
I see pearly gates
It's what I desire
And I'm so fucking tired
I'm ready to say goodbye
That every day I live a lie

I don't know why
I even try
When we're all gonna die
Here we go again
It's all in my head
I wish I was dead
Open my casket
Maybe then I'd be happy

Fighting my emotions
While I'm lost in the commotion
I'm also fuckin hopeless
Cuz of the endless fuckin bullshit
Dealing with the pain
And also numbing my brain
No wonder that I'm hopeless
Cuz I don't know how to cope with
The things I keep inside
Like fighting to be alive
Suggestions from depression
And social suicide
So would it be better
If I just left a letter
Cuz I've made peace
With living to be deceased

I don't know why
I even try
When we're all gonna die
Here we go again
It's all in my head
I wish I was dead
Open my casket
Maybe then I'd be happy
Ay
I don't know why
I even try
When we're all gonna die
Here we go again
It's all in my head
I wish I was dead
Open my casket
Maybe then I'd be happy



Credits
Writer(s): Vincent Gollhofer
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