Your Daughter

My entire childhood
I thought I had to hide who I was
I never let anybody see
I finally accept now
That some things never change
How your image will always matter more than me

I never really seem to measure up
I gave my all, but it's just never good enough

But I'm your daughter
Ain't that enough
To be someone
You're proud of?
I tried my best
And yet you wish that I was different
And the reason
Why I always shut you out
Was because I felt like
I let you down
If I continue this way
I'm gonna break
I'm not the one who needs to change

I always used to hold back
Afraid that I'd be too much
'Cause my whole life
You taught me that I was
Afraid I was too wild
When in fact I was just a child
Who desperately wanted to be loved

So I chased the love from others
You never understood
But did it ever cross your mind that maybe they gave me what you never could?

'Cause being your daughter
Is not enough
To be someone
You're proud of
I tried my best
And yet you wish that I was different
And the reason
Why I always shut you out
Was because I felt like
I let you down
If I continue this way
I'm gonna break
I'm not the one who needs to change

And I know my sexuality
Doesn't go well with what you believe
And when I started in recovery
You became my worst enemy
It's like I'm always almost good enough
It's like I always almost measure up
But if I could then I would be the one that you want me to be
I just don't see why

Being your daughter is not enough
To be someone you're proud of
I try my best
And yet you wish that I was different
And the reason why I always shut
You out
Is because I know that I've let you down
If I continue this way I'm gonna break
I'm not the one who needs to change