Weight of the World

(Hello, sir?
Sir, this is hotel security, can you please open the door?)

I black out in the room again
A busted lip and broken skin
I wake up in the bathroom
And dare not bother asking
Why the mirror is cracked and all I see
Are shards of glass inside of me
There's voices there to dare me
My father's here to scare me

And my mother she sits beyond the door
She's curled up crying on the floor
Look at what her son's done
When the weight of all the world's gone wrong
Wrong again
Gone fucking wrong
Again

Well liars they leave a guilty trail
Let me tell you, I've been lying for years
That must be why I'm standing in this space
Constantly over and over, I'm
Disregarding that I have created these monsters!
They are on both of my sides
So I wipe the blood from both of their eyes
From all four of their eyes

And while I wait for wounds to heal
I see you by the window sill
Your heart's torn out a plastic spoon
When honesty lit up that room
So I stole the pillowcase to clean
This mess I made of someone's dream
Now you see what I've done?
When the weight of all the world's gone wrong again
Gone fucking wrong again

God, this room is old and wise and
I fall to the bed and wonder, "How did I get here?"
I was a little boy who would argue with a tree
Go ahead, thump his head, he'll turn back to normal
Now why is that what I see?

Don't bother trusting me
Don't bother waiting
Don't bother changing things that won't give in to changing
Just let me go away
I'm packed
Down
Whenever
Let's go
Let's really really go