Heal Myself (Radio Edit)

When the doctors can't do nothing
But add pills to yo shelf
Understand you can heal yourself
When all that pain got you numb
And you can't feel yourself
Understand you gotta heal yourself
When the world lying to you
Just keep it real yourself
And understand you can heal yourself
When you hit rock bottom
And wanna kill your self
Don't give up you can heal yourself

So many weapons formed
So much damage from the storms
But it ain't no time to mourn
Lord knows I'm tired
But I ain't got the time to yawn
Finding pieces of my broken heart
That I ain't know was torn
I had to heal myself
These verses like Neosporin
And who the h said
It was darkest before dawn
Fatigued but I can't sleep
I'm up before my alarm
Balancing this weight on my shoulders
With both my arms
Tell my friends I can't come over
It's too much over overcome
Speaking life into myself
The pain rolling off tongue
Ironically I can't feel it
Orajel got my numb
Ain't nobody love me better
I'm feeling like Chaka Khan
Walaikum salam
Face in my palms
Don't let the sun kill yo grass
Cuz you ain't watering yo lawn
I'm indebted to so many
Forever we share a bond
I know what I've became
But what more could I become
Lost my dad, then my mom
Three uncles, and my cousin
But ain't no days off
I'm a father and a husband
Chanta text me all the time
To check my mental health
So does Ashley and Amanda
When I'm feeling by myself
Somehow, I'm still feeling by myself
So I just pray
Chasza hit my line
Just to ask me if I'm straight
Just got off the phone Nick
And I got messages from Tre
Me and Rick cried together
Cuz we aint know the words to say
I built strength off this analysis
Kevin checked on me
But he couldn't make the funeral
Cuz he was on dialysis
I told him take care of yourself
I understand that
A month later, heard some good news
He getting a transplant
First time I felt joy in a while, tried to relax
He told me during surgery
Both his lungs collapsed
Despite all the obstacles
He finally got released
But he on oxygen
Until his lungs get better
Approximately, a month later
I texted him on his birthday
A couple months after that
He died in his birth place
Honestly I'm scared
All those prayers that I said
And the ones I prayed for the most
The ones that end up dead
Ham committed suicide
Lay committed suicide
I'm trying to understand it all
And keep my mind purified
I hate to be dramatic
But the s been so traumatic
I had to heal myself
These verses prophylactics
I said all that to say this
Every time you play this
I'm managing my pain from yo playlist
I said all that to say this
Every time you play this
I'm managing my pain from yo playlist

When the doctors can't do nothing
But add pills to yo shelf
Understand You can heal yourself
When all that pain got you numb
And you can't feel yourself
Understand you gotta heal yourself
When the world lying to you
Just keep it real yourself
And understand you can heal yourself
When you hit rock bottom
And wanna kill your self
Don't give up you can heal yourself