Back to Ashes

You look, act like you know me
Or so I thought or so you told me
Everything comes back to ashes even when I try to grab it

See your face there picture your eyes wide
As you read my feelings what a good try
stay on that page anger or rage I ain't coming back to you

It's a blur night thought we had more years
In a smoky car I never saw your tears
Then I saw you cry for the first time
In that bad way I was in your eyes

I feel like you can never know
My head is worse than yours could go
You said you felt so low
God what would you know

About low
I'm stoned
In your moms car
Head or heart I made the worse call
Let my love down say I broke it all

I felt so sane never thought about flight
It's all the same we couldn't be more alike
Catch you strumming ur parts unknown scars from biking I've outgrown

A smile cold but I know you or so I thought everybody told you
I see your photo you're at the show you're in my places I used to go to

I don't know shit about love
Couldn't make this up
But I knew that guitar and it hangs it that window
Asking where'd she go

I'm low
Stoned again
And I can see my losses on the pavement
Standing there you're a gate away again
Cold
You'll never know how bad you could hurt me
I never told how had to let it go
Wanted to show you how could you ever know

It's burning through me
Slow never had jealousy
I stomped on ur heart I'll tear you apart
Would you do it all over again

Kissing me too hard
Knew we had to leave so I went too far
Never thought you'd move as fast as you are
Never thought I'd see you in another's arms

Now you hide from me and your wearing jeans and I see your face and it's different
Angry cold I don't know that look promises that you undertook

I'm low
And now I'm stoned again in a different car
With a different boy and the dead ain't playin

And my heart is racing
Because I miss the way it felt
When you held me close to you
When I knew everything about you

And it feels like
And it tastes like
I'll never know you
I thought I'd know you by now