Cancer My Story

It wasn't a dream
It was my worst nightmare
The worst thing you could get told
You could lose your life

I was sixteen one day at work
I started to feel pains that really hurt
Hurt so bad I wanted to scream and shout
So I went to the hospital to get checked out
Scan after scan it just showed blood
A few months later revealed a lump
At seventeen I got diagnosed
When the doctor told me my face just froze

He said it's renal cell let's get it out
Quarter of my kidney I found myself without
Two weeks weeks later received a letter
It was from the surgeon it said I was better
Two months later another appointment
And that when to my disappointment
Ewing's sarcoma is what is is
That's the result from the histologist

He said I'm so sorry we were wrong
Nine months of chemo if you want to live long
And that's when I just felt low
Felt like there were nowhere to go
Three weeks later I started my treatment
For the next nine months were to be different
Not knowing how you're going to feel
A lot of drugs to help you heal

You see two week later my hair fell out
That's when my mind filled with self doubt
At first I was scared to be bald
Because all I could think was the names I'd be called
Up and down I've had my lows
The way I feel no-one knows
I thought to myself I'm too young to die
There's even been time's when it's made me cry

On my seventh lot of chemo I felt my worst
Walked out of hospital ignored the nurse
I thought to myself I need a break
Three weeks off I told them straight
See in that time
I picked myself up
I felt a lot better
Had made my mind up

Finish my treatment
Get it all done
Look forward to the day
When I say I've won
I win