Fame

I'm dealing with all this pressure on my head
The people around me now know I'm focused on the bread
But down the line will we hang on by a thread
Or question each other's love and hate each other instead?
(I don't know), uh
Will they love me till the end
Or witness the plan work and try to make their amends?
Will they remember my suffering when I spend
Or tell me they're happy for me but really have to pretend? (Uh)
Will all these girls see me, or just see my pockets?
Will they see the mindset, or just see the deposits?
'Cause I might confuse the motives if I'm being honest
But I could never wife a leech and that's me being modest
I know I'll have to decipher all of the lies and
Figure out whether friends are enemies in disguise
'Cause things change when you set and on the rise
They'll only see the fame when they looking in my eyes

I'm going crazy
But how could you blame me?
Niggas switch and my spirit feel cross right now
I'm so wavy
So please don't blame me
Imma say whatever that I want right now

Late nights just thinking bout how I live
And thinking 'bout what it was
And dealing with what it is (what it is)
It's hard to balance time I can give
And it's been the same way since niggas started this biz (facts)
I gotta vent so I don't overload
And when the pen hits paper I'm in a different mode
I shouldn't say certain things, 'cause you know the code
Right now we'll be better off if no one knows (shhh)
Addicted to all the riches and the fame
The friendliest faces only smiling 'cause of the name
Then you think about how shit just ain't the same
'Cause everybody would leave so much faster than they came
I attribute it to the game
It's just another way of how self-interest is played
It's just another reason why time gotta get paid
And dimes gotta get saved my minds already made

I'm going crazy
But how could you blame me?
Niggas switch and my spirit feel cross right now
I'm so wavy
So please don't blame me
Imma say whatever that I want right now