Unwanted

By the lamp I lie awake as it's begun
Under the threat of looming sun
I watch the lines crawl inch by inch
I taste the smoke upon my tongue

I close my eyes and wonder why it hurts so much to be alive
I crush my nails into my palms
I wish for death to take my hand, lead me away tonight

Born to suffer
Born to hollow
Born to be swallowed
Born to live in misery

I am unwanted by the air I breath
The blood, and hair, and sweat, and teeth
Unwanted by myself in void
The warmth of things that bring me joy
Dissociated memories
It's never really felt by me
Cold gathering where I reside
That cuts my flesh like knives
The gray that fills the void where I divide

The sinus rhythm charts a path into my flesh
Hatred fighting, painting blossoms steering me to seething- mesh
Fade to static, put my hands upon my face
I hide from images of this place

Underneath the weight of my disguise
A looming silence flashed before my eyes
The ticking clock moves inch by inch
I feel it bleed
Never getting what I need

The pain
Unwanted
The phantoms
The scent of grief
Unwanted
The malice burning creeping up inside my mind
Unwanted
A shallow grave outside
I am unwanted



Credits
Writer(s): Miira Gainey
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