Goodbye for Now

It's time for me to go
I've said all I can say
But first you ought to know
Before I go away
When you saw me in the snow
On that cold November day
I was thinking of you
And I was okay
But my Dear I need to go
Before you make me stay
The promises I broke
You never made

And I don't wanna be someone
You remember as a coward and small
I'd rather not be someone you remember at all
You tell me stop swimming in circles
And follow the flow of the stream
I hold my head above the water
As my bones are picked clean

My eyes are filled with tears
As I dwell on what you said
Cause even after all these years
I can tell you want me dead
But when resentment rears
It's dreadful, awful, bitter head
I no longer fear
I laugh instead

Cause I know I'll never be someone
You remember only once in a while
I only wanna be someone you remember and smile
You tell me just glide for once
And don't fly so close to the sun
I thought freedom was supposed to be fun
But once the wax melts and it's over and done
I look around and I don't know anyone

I still remember what you told me all those years ago
That if I survived myself, it would be a fucking miracle
From here I don't know If I'm looking down at my reflection
Or staring up at the sky
But I really don't care where I am
Hell, I'm barely wondering why
I find myself so close to the doves
So are they holding me up
Or am I learning to fly?
It's time I say goodbye
This high will do just fine