Lost In Eternity

I fucked up, I'm all outta luck
I feel so stuck, I'm in a fuckin rut
I get fucked up
Yo death what's up?
I took more drugs
Fucking burnt my nose up
And I get fucked up
To mask my pain from love
To mask my face cuz
Fuck being sober these days
Cuz the doctor says
"Take pill X Y N' Z each day" (fuck that)

And yet they care not if it helps at all, unphased
Oh I am so amazed (ha)
The people who try save face
Are the people drugging me and blaming my junkie ways
For symptoms that they cause or delayed
In treating, fuck just help me mate!
It's why you're there. It's why you're paid
Please stop me before I shave off my face

Oh fuck! Shit
I lost my way
Oh fuck! Oh shit
I hate each day
Oh fuck! Oh shit
I hate my face, I can't stand seeing it
In the mirror each day

Oh fuck! Shit
I lost my way
Oh fuck! Shit
I hate each day
Oh fuck! Shit
I hate my face, I can't stand seeing it
In the mirror each day

How is it that the man who deals
Pills to heal, also steals, my time
My will, my health, my days
Reveal your ways
I can spot a drug dealer a mile away
So tell me mate, as you stuff my face
As you serve me plate after plate of waste
Please tell me mate, go on and explain
Why are stims wrong, but only as a paste? (hypocrite)
Why no stims if ADD quakes
But over legal doses if mania it rage? (hypocrite)
Why are they payin ya?
I'm in pain and ya
Can't damn explain why
Ya won't listen t'what a say?
I tell you every fucking day
I'm close to losing my damn way
I tell you that I paved the way
For deities to figure out what to say

Fuck! Shit
I lost my way-
Oh fuck! Oh shit
I hate each day
Oh fuck! Oh shit
I hate my face, I can't stand seeing it
In the mirror each day

Oh fuck! Shit
I lost my way-
Oh fuck! Shit
I hate each day
Oh fuck! Shit
I hate my face, I can't stand seeing it
In the mirror each day

See, drugs they helped me find the way
Drugs they help me fight the grey
Some days they'll help hide the hate
But I truly fear the ones that I really think I'm really great
See you chase a damn high, I chase being okay
You live and deny, I hide all my pain away
You project and never aid, n' I reflect and escapade
To protect what I want, from what other people say

What they say is truly what I cannot stand
Doctors display paradoxes via hands
Writing lines of pen on page they pretend
That the klon's from love
Cocktail drugs will make me be okay, friend?
Will it make me feel really great?
Will it lessen all the hate? (Will the pain end?)
Will it be a lesson yet again
Not to trust the doctors
Will I be sat inside my rage?
Forgetting what I need is aid?
To soothe the pain

I lost my way
Oh fuck, ah shit
I hate each day
Aw fuck ah shit
I fuckin hate my face
In the mirror each day

Oh fuck! Shit
I'm all out of luck
Oh fuck shit
I'm in a fuckin rut
Oh fuck shit! What the fuck have I done?
I fucking blacked out
I hurt my fucking mum!

Argh!