Unproductive

Ain't been doing much so now I'm
Writing what I'm thinking (thinking)
I been stuck inside the house
And floating in and out of
Conscious sleeping (sleeping)
Beating up myself because I feel like
I been tweaking (tweaking)
If I'm really being honest I don't
Know just what I'm seeking

Ain't been seeing my friends
We up and stopped making plans
How do I find the motivation
If no one in the stands
See I just bought me some brands
I needed it on demand
I'm sick of airport rappers cause
They so plane when they land

When I was happy I danced
I used to water my plants
Left my window open
Now my desk is so full of ants
Ain't been to London or France
Couldn't even get me no grants
But I been traveling real deep
In the sisterhood of them pants

Don't miss the days that I worked (naw)
I miss the days I was working (yeah)
My dawg arrested for philanthropy
the way they was serving (yeah)
Can't no one curse me I curve em
You better off learning cursive
Ain't no killer but don't test
I'll make yo casket submersive

These damn thoughts is perversive (true)
All the time it's recursive (ooh)
If this life is simulated
Then it's way too immersive
Not one for being assertive
I just ain't that kinda person
Imma help out where I can
And live my life with a purpose
I can't stop writing these verses (naw)
Otherwise I get nervous (yeah)
This shit heal me therapeutically
Like conversive nurses
I'm just so hot like the earth is
But it's way more than the surface
I'm getting followers everyday
I should be preaching in churches

I been divinely accosted
Can't find my heart I ain't toss it
People see me say just judging
From your eyes you ain't lost it
Yo heart just been too exhausted
Love leaking out like a faucet
Pouring out where it ain't needed
Boy that shit can get caustic (oh yeah)
So I gotta come off it (yeah)
I should flake and get frosted (aye)
Is my religion adopted (huh)
Do I believe in these crosses (I don't know)
My inner peace is assaulted by
Thoughts I thought I once vaulted (so)
It's like my life on HBO but I just can't ever pause it
It feel like

It feel like

It feel like unproductive tendencies
Have only made me enemies
I'm tryna get to inner peace
For more than a moment

I had starting talking to the trees
That been around for centuries
They told me I should feel the breeze
Let go what I'm holding

Now I ain't been doing nothing
That don't make myself better
I need to pull my own strings
Like I'm knitting a sweater
I gained a bit of writer's block
Until I scripted this letter
I've been the only one I'm waiting on let's get it together

I gotta stack up my cheddar (cheese)
I gotta win me a medal (please)
I gotta reach a new level (screens)
Hell, I just might go embezzle (sheesh)

A lot of rappers think they real (see)
Boy I'm mister geppetto (capisce)
What I got in my baretta (release)
Is a heavier metal (he's a beast)
I keep it moving like pedal
(She want me)
She said I'm handsome she Gretel
(In the sheets)
You a joker like Leto
(But she can't)
Let's get together like Lego
(Be with me)
I ask you just how yo day go
Don't leave me read I'm no fable
I do whatever you say so
Right now it's hasta luego

So I can only blame myself
For my day's unproduction (oh yeah)
Sometimes I wanna leave the bed
But it's too good at seduction (yeah)
I tried to do it on my own
But I just needed instruction
A revelation this is shocking
I'm so good at conduction (aye)

So used to taking my time
But now I'm taking what's mine
If it's up and it's stuck
Then I'm not real inclined
I put some stars in my spine
Cause I just needed align
I'd be a curious cat
if it meant I had nine lives
So what I'm doing