I'm Slowly Killing Myself

Yeah, yeah
Got the devil on my shoulder
He been telling me to shoot back
Catch a couple bodies
And then go and get my loot back
Plotting my revenge
But I don't really wanna do that
They say you should focus on the bag, yeah

But what's the point in getting rich if I still wanna die?
Finally, built a life, but I'm still feeling lifeless
I've been holding on, sometimes wonder why?
They say I'm not alone, but I still feel the silence

Every rapper just promotes consumption
Yeah, I see the system, wanna disrupt the function
If you ain't honest, like when they view you is less than
Sick of chasing fame, it only gave me more depression
It's so lame, these artists desperate for attention
So they selling out like they forgot the vision
I been slow and steady, not concerned about a lift-off
I can never make a track solely for a TikTok

Finally back, I'm sane, finally got my grip back
Got a red dot, new attach make 'em zigzag
All I do is work man, I don't got time to kick back
All you sitting hating and miserable you won't admit that (yeah)
Going suicidal again, I want a way out
Feeling like the end is coming up like any day now
Looking at Kobe, wonder if I'll go the same route
I don't think I'll make it out

I'm slowly killing myself
Can anybody help me 'fore I crash and burn?
Lessons that I never learned

I'm slowly killing myself
I'm calling, can anybody help me?
Save me 'fore I crash and burn
Lessons that I never learned

I'd rather die, I don't wanna be a burden
Burn it down, throw it all in the furnace
Death hope 'cause I'm always hurting
I could buy anything and still feel worthless