Can't Even Tell

Alright so

If the world blows up
Would we still hang out? Would you hit me up?
You see, I think too much
'Til I think I ruin everything I touch, yeah

And if we all just died
Would we still hang out in the afterlife?
Eating takeout all night
Would you still let me be your right-hand guy?

My friends don't really understand me
My family, they don't like me well

Yeah, I'm fighting hard and losing
Learning through the bruising
Maybe it's a good thing
I can't even tell

I'm hanging by a shoestring
Riding all the mood swings
Maybe it's a good thing
I can't even tell, yeah

I while away these days
Nothing to look forward to but still I wait
Scenario: worst case
I don't make peace with my weirdo brain

And with all the right words and in the right way
Who knows what I could achieve or obtain
Come take a ride around in my brain
'Cause I know that you get it

My friends don't really understand me
My family, they don't like me well, yeah

Yeah, I'm fighting hard and losing
Learning through the bruising
Maybe it's a good thing
I can't even tell

I'm hanging by a shoestring
Riding all the mood swings
Maybe it's a good thing
I can't even tell (anymore)

Yeah
It's too good to be true, so it's probably true

I'm feeling good today
Would suck if something came along and changed that, hey
So yet come what may
I'll be right here ready to join the fray

It's like you always say
You gotta learn to see yourself from outside, babe
So what would you change?
'Cause I'm just tryna love my cage

And I'm fighting hard and losing
Learning through the bruising
Maybe it's a good thing
I can't even tell

I'm hanging by a shoestring
Riding all the mood swings
Maybe it's a good thing
I can't even tell anymore

Fighting hard and losing
Do what makes you nervous
Tryna make you smile
I've got no self-awareness
Been like this a while