Could I Love

I've been looking for you, in every way that I knew
The search seemed endless
Vain dellusions I saw, icy shadows I fought
They kept me chanceless
And when at time I would hold, a spark of warmth in the cold
It would escape me
Mean obsessions maintained, a rage destructively aimed
To slam and rape me

Craving every minute every hour for a glance of affection
Swallowing my pride, embracing cages that would suck all my blood
Starving in a desert that'd enchant me with its song of rejection
Poisening my soul, got my life, stuck in the mud

Could I breath without you
Could I dream without you
Could I sleep without you
Could I love

I've been looking for you, in every man that I screwed
They never made it
Their loving seed got unsure, it made me feel like a whore
Because I paid (for) it
And all the women I met that I would want in my bed
To have you near me
I wouldn't get them too close, too scared that they'd see the holes
That they would fear me

Faking every minute, every hour for my shallow existence
Lying to myself, to others, lying to my whole bloody life
Trading my beliefs and who I am for any kind of subsistance
Lying to my soul to ease the truth that would, cut like a knife

Could I breath without you
Could I dream without you
Could I sleep without you
Could I love

Now I've shed all my tears, I have defeated my fears
Seems I have found you
But you don't want to be seen, ashamed of what you have been
And all you're bound to
So I am here to sustain a god who judges my pain
(for) Being mistaken
To get the trail of my cross, pay the bills of my loss
(for) Being forsaken

But I've had enough, to cover to your cover, I can be free
I can say go, no, go ahead mother
Stick to your game, say I'm a shame
But I'm breaking loose for who's good to me

I will breath without you
I will dream without you
I will sleep without you
I will love

I will breath without you
I will dream without you
I will sleep without you
I will love