Bpd

Hey
Oh yeah
Let's go
Got a lot of work ahead of me
Got a lot on my plate
I spent a lot of days with not a lot to say I ate, aw
Still trying to grow and say there's not a lot to say I hate
This life go back and forth like a tennis game
Last night felt really down but today I feel great
Sometimes it takes one thing to brighten up your day
I'm trying to make that thing come from within
What I'm talking about
Uh, self care
And I'm doing better than ever
Yeah I'm well aware
Been working on my mind like it was a full time job
You don't get a lot of help from where I come from
But nowadays I'm loving me
Setting boundaries but more importantly
When I finish this song I'll say I'm proud of me
The sun's coming out can't wait to party
And running on the beach
Stare at the waves
Say goodbye to winter and hello to the good days
Got a lot of scars made a lot of mistakes
This life feels like a war running out of bandaids
But I will win the fight even if I bleed from both hands
I'm so thankful happiness on the way (Hey, hey)

This life go back and forth like a tennis game
Back and forth
Back and forth
Back and forth
Back and forth
Back and forth

So much poison in this room
Can't breathe
So much pain in this heart
Can't sleep
(Pain, pain, pain, pain)
Nothing good at sight
I cuddle up with drugs because they feel so right
Head is real cloudy
Don't feel the need to talk to nobody
Y'all are nobody to me
At the crib with the drinks that's where I be
Might watch some cartoons
Because I'm stuck at ten
They say you're stuck around the time
The traumatic stuff happened
No one to cry to this time
Not even back then
Had to write my anger down, shit I think I broke my pen
Soul is tortured with a gift to write down the pain
You fucking vultures fly around above my head
You'll have to wait until I'm dead
I gave you more than enough
I'm still waiting to get paid
It ain't funny no more
Life played a joke on me
Me don't got time for jokes
Tried it too many times but I'm done now
I don't trust no more
My therapist cry when I tell her what I've been through
I'll spend the next week being my own villain
I don't got time for you (Time for you)

For now I'm busy getting anxious
Looking at the world like it's filled with danger
I lock the door and close the curtains
If I hear someone down the stairs
I might talk to myself in whispers
While my eyes getting bigger
They all left
Nobody took care of me that's what I think
That's why I'm living with all these insecurities
Like can somebody ever love me
Am I worth it
Do you think I will ever see this mark
That they left on me fade away
I want to fade away
Typing on my phone
This will be my last day what's the quickest way
This is not what I signed for
This is not what I asked for
Just wanted to be loved
What do I feel this huge hole in me for
What happened to me
I remember this morning I was quite happy
Had to let some anger out
Felt so confident I could you knock you out just like Ali
How did I end up crying here so lonely
Oh yeah, it's just another day of BPD