Can't Let My Guard Down

As a man
When it come to my feelings
I always feel like I'm supposed to have this warriors mentality
I'm never posed to let shit get to me
Bother me or phase me
So I guess I just bottle everything up

I try to open up
Can't let my guard down
Been blocking so long
That shit is hard now
I bottle emotions
Feel weak if I show em
At times I may slip
Try my hardest to hold em
I try to open up
Can't let my guard down
Been blocking so long
That shit is hard now
I bottle emotions
Feel weak if I show em
At times I may slip
Try my hardest to hold em

Remember shawty said I'm cute but too short to be dating
Her loss but that surely aided in defenses created
That was after the fact
I was broken in fact
It's like a virus on my heart corrupt feelings I'm hacked
Something simple as that
Would get me to crack
Protection of how I'm feeling
That was something I lack
Realized my software was too soft and I wanted to change it
I built a barrier for hardware whenever they bring it
I'm well protected that go for any feelings I'm feeling
Anger sadness grief fear got easy concealing
There was some times when I cried Hate to admit it yet
I still wipe the tears from my eyes
There was some times I let them linger to the point that they dried
Cause I'm a man full of pride
That's some shit that I usually hide
Sometimes when hiding my pain thats me screaming for love
Under this tough guy act I be needing a hug
K

I try to open up
Can't let my guard down
Been blocking so long
That shit is hard now
I bottle emotions
Feel weak if I show em
At times I may slip
Try my hardest to hold em
I try to open up
Can't let my guard down
Been blocking so long
That shit is hard now
I bottle emotions
Feel weak if I show em
At times I may slip
Try my hardest to hold em

Supposed to be a stiff nigga
We taught to show no bitch in us Even when it's hard to deal we stay dealing with all this shit in us
Battered and bruised
Got a thug it out attitude
Some problems are huge
It don't matter the magnitude
What you know bout living your life And showing that you are tough
Giving advice to who need it
Inside shit fucking you up
I lost my job but got up early pretending to go to work
I found another
Couldn't tell you how much a nigga was hurt
Providing really bringing that pressure
On bad terms and I did not need you giving me lectures
And whenever my mother would yell at me
I be fighting back my tears
Weak emotions I was boxing that's that shit I had to clear as a kid
At times I hate when I be feeling so ruined
And wish I didn't have emotions but those make us all human
Not emotionally detached really the complete opposite
Got in my feelings quick so my heart adjusted by stopping it
Yeah

I try to open up
Can't let my guard down
That was after the fact
I was broken in fact
I try to open up
Can't let my guard down
That was after the fact
I was broken in fact