I'm

I can promise you that I'm not like that
Promise that I'm changing my ways my ways
Promise that I'm not like that
Please don't take me for granite
And I'm hanging up all the times where I think about you and I write them on the page

So let's see it's only day twenty six
And I've thought about you one twenty seven times
You're on my mind
That's every time I've cried
Why do I lie about the things that I write Because I don't wanna be attacked for the way I feel
Because I know everything that I say turns into a big deal
But you don't wanna see me you just wanna hurt You don't want to see me breathe or Hold me in the dirt
You told me that every day that you were my girl But I'm feeling like a prisoner inside Your empty world
So you don't have to break me for your own games
I just want to be set free
Because I deserve to be happy
Every single text
It went to my head
And I don't wanna talk about my ex again
I promise I'm not trying to compare you
Because nothing compares to the way that you make me fucking smile
Oh wait that don't happen anymore
I barely get a hi out the door
And I really want to lay on the floor
And think about

It's not what you think it is
I promise you that I'm changing
It's in your head
It's in your head
So you don't have to stay awake and lay inside your bed
I hope that you feel better baby
Honestly I think that I'm at the brink of fucking dying
And if I'm being honest and just stop the lying
I don't wanna live on
I don't wanna live on
I'll feel better if it's all just dark
In my mind won't stop calling me
And if you think
That you're ever gonna save me then you won't then you won't so just give up

So just give up
I fucked up
I hurt you desert you
But baby I'm hurting myself
And I know that it's killing on the inside
And I'm trying to hide my emotions
I'm broken
But you left me hopeless
I'm choking on my own breath
Cut me open
I'm digging a hole in my chest
I don't wanna see all the fucking missed texts Because now you're my ex