17 Days (feat. Avon Junkies)

It's a two thimble night as you're stuck on your flight
Going hours and miles away
You're in some other place while I dream of your face
As I'm fading into the day

You're my match, you're my muse, you're the poison I choose
You're the light from my phone in the night
You're the calm, you're the storm, you're what keeps me warm
When the darkness fades into the light

I promised I'd write, every day, every night
All the secrets that cower inside of me
I'll make up for the days in some similar ways
Scrawling words this digital diary

I'm not sure that I've ever been this keen or clever
You draw words from me, deep from this well
But I cannot pretend that I want it to end
(And it can't s'far as my heart can tell)

See, my heart and my mind? Well they fight all the time
But you know, in the end who will win
You say, "Give me your mind, and I'll give you mine"
As you're holding my heart with a grin

While you're walking the streets, as your hollow heart beats
I can tell you it won't beat alone
Cause by now it's quite clear I'll be waiting right here
When you find your way back to this home

Here are 17 ways that I love you
In these 17 days that I wait
In my eyes there is no one above you
What can I say?

I'm tired, I'm sick, won't you kidnap me quick
Show me many a beautiful place
We'll see all the sights as we spend all the nights
Deep in each other's embrace

Well the hours, they creep as you're fighting off sleep
Just to drink down each moment we steal
Watching each line on your face as you try
To mask things you could never conceal

Trace back to your eyes that could never disguise
All the fury and fire within
I could swim in those pools, steal those emerald jewels
And never return them again

"Love me, no punches", and I'll love you bunches
But maybe a bite now and then
I'm tough but I'm gentle, a touch, maybe, mental
But you won't have love like this again

I love you bunches, but don't pull your punches
I long for each scrape and each bruise
I need every slap, every stroke, every smack
To remind me of my right to choose

Blood-soaked and shrouded, the future is clouded
But as long as you love me it's clear
You got me, you get me, for as long as you let me
I'll always have my love waiting here

Here are 17 ways that I love you
In these 17 days that you're gone
In my heart there is no one above you
What can go wrong?

Awake and alone with my ear to my phone
Playing melodies distant but true
The intent in your voice fights a pain without choice
But I'm set to sink deeper in you

I want all your bad, all your ugly, your sad
All your hopes, all your fears, all your dreams
I'll consume all your pain as you open your veins
And bleed out all your dark, scarlet screams

I'll pretend that you're here as I'm holding back tears
Lost in thought as I'm sprawled 'cross your bed
There is no way to sleep as I hear your phone beep
Echoing through my poor, worried head

I'm constantly caught 'tween the light and the dark
And the glimpses that I let you see
I'm not sure that Im willing to let you catch this spilling
Emotion that's inside of me

Fuck all this timing, it never aligning
The hours I wait for a word...
My doubt is consuming; the worst always looming
Until I hear "sup babygirl"

Here are 17 ways that I love you
In these 17 days that I wait
In my heart there is no one above you
What can I say?

This last ones by hand- in six hours, you'll land
I can barely contain my excitement
After seventeen days navigating this maze
I admit that I'm anxious, but frightened

You've morphed me, you've changed me, completely rearranged me
What's left is right, up's become down
Through all consolations, anguish and affirmations
All I know is I need you around

It has felt like a year that you haven't been here
So I'm not sure how it all will play out
But these few things left true- I will always love you
That is one thing I never could doubt

Here are 17 ways that I love you
In those 17 days you were gone
In my soul there is nothing but to love you
What could go wrong...