Rewind

Pangs of regret rising up from the depths
Of my psyche when the rest falling silent
Looking over pages I left full of days to forget
If you you had the power to, would you rewind it?

If I could go back to rewrite chapters of my life I would've
Got myself on track before asked to see if I was good
Enough for an outside approval
Grown on my own and embraced the unusual
Probably should've called my mom more
Helped my sisters get along or
Thought of what I want for
Them and how to get it all sorted it out
Cuz I'm all for it now
But does that make up the time?
Something I'm sure about
Contour around the blemishes
Doesn't drown their presences
Lately that realization takes on a louder resonance
In my head it gets replayed over like encore for crowds
Wish I consciously confronted how to conquer my doubts
Could've been at this for years already
Could've passed my peers already
Should've had more drive and kept the steering steady
Should've felt emotion, put them tears in every
Paragraph
Where am at
Would be very happy if I didn't go where fearing led me

Coulda, shoulda, woulda what my grandma like to tell me
Hindsight 20 20, yeah that much I know
Coulda, shoulda, woulda what my conscious try to sell me
Hindsight 20 20, yeah that much I know
Backup, reload
What would I do different?
Nothing is a given, giving half of my soul
Not enough of a description
Struggle with decisions
No self-love in my self-image, yeah that much I know
Punish my reflection
At the subtlest detection
That my public perception doesn't match what I hope
Running from connection
In the comforting direction
Never wanted the attention, yeah that much I know
That much I know, yeah
That much I know
Never wanted the attention
That much I know, yeah
That much I know, yeah yeah

Pangs of regret rising up from the depths
Of my psyche when the rest falling silent
Looking over pages I left full of days to forget
If you you had the power to, would you rewind it?