Silence

This is the story I'm telling you in depth
Started with me as kid who was a constant reject
The one who always was in the back of the classroom
Always laughed at for my condition for what they didn't approve
Frankly let it bother me cause I had another occurrence
Struggled to find approval even harder to seek reassurance
As life got blurry kept walking in the same path
Got so embarrassed I just had to learn adjust to adapt
Imagine everyday feeling so isolated
Tryna accept circumstances but you can't even change it
Fought through the depression name what I haven't done
I failed at a lot of things but feeling isn't one
There was places I just was never invited too
An outcast to the world I didn't even choose
This is where my days became dark gloom
In my room, I assume, alone I was just never accepting the real sooth

I'm lost somewhere you won't find me
I've been stuck in silence

Yeah, constantly battled my thoughts only thing I brought
Is finding my life on the edge to ledge after I sought
Nobody understands a lost cause, after it's gone
I noticed my own volumes wouldn't ever evolve
Hey blight, you should just give up you're gonna go unnoticed
These kind of voices I always gave my only focus
But I let hurt be my identity healing be my enemy
Cause pain was the reflection of me mentally
Trapped in their own perspective, being so upset
Cause me to paint a picture, now I don't like to vent
If we all have the imperfections what makes yours any better
Kinda ironic you didn't listen to all the lectures
Truth be told, I used to fold, by the opinions I let mold and measure my thinking that I'll never find gold
Pretty sad that silence gave me an excuse to never listen
It became selective when all they taught me is how to be distant

I'm lost somewhere you won't find me
I've been stuck in silence

Look I don't need you to be proud of me
In order for me to feel okay about myself honestly
I need relief for me, not someone else's need
No attention from others just some silent peace to breathe
I may missed life but only certain parts
Being hard of hearing doesn't make me dumb
Hearing doesn't make you smart
I'm different from everyone else, I'm glad i'm not you
Cause I don't have to compete with you, even if I can't hear you too

I'm lost somewhere you won't find me
I've been stuck in silence