Not the Same

If they ask me
"I'll be straight"
Even though the feeling's strange
Didn't make it yet, but like LaRussell said
"It's not the same"
Learning how to fake it
Even when I feel that I'm insane
Said a lot of all that stressing
Came from being in my way
Thankful for the blessings
And the fact I'm here today
But I'm hateful to myself
And for the things I couldn't change
Never gonna hate
Always felt this life was great
Then I started seeing faces
Leaving quicker than they change
Only thing I'm seeing now
Is that smile on your face
And I think about how I really wanna change
If I had it all now, could I be the saving grace?
Could I take away the stress and keep that smile on your face?
I know who your family is
You don't ever make mistakes
Everybody scared of you
I think you're scared because I ain't
Since we're on the topic
I ain't sleep in seven days
Can't nobody love you like me
I don't wanna go away
All I ever really wanted was for you to stay the same
You're the only one I see
Why you play me like a game?
All the feelings that you fear
And the ones you lock away
All the feelings that you feel
That you throwing in my face
I ain't nonchalant
It's maturity
I can tell you love me
With all certainty
But why you act like what you're doing now isn't hurtin' me?
Silent treatment
I'm impatient with you
Now you're irking me

Everything you doing, deep down, is because of me
Try to take you up with me
But why you playing dumb with me?
All you do is run
All I give you is my loyalty
All I see is bitter bitches
Misery loves company
Putting all my trust in you
Cause you're a one of one to me
Every time we fuck
I keep going when you come for me
You ain't hearing me
And you're giving me no reason
That should spill the tea
All alone and I'm dying slow
Please don't switch on me
I just know I'm sorry
Even though it isn't all on me
Maybe I'm a problem
And the one who's been hurting me
I just wish you would see
What you're doing to me
And what you're putting me through



Credits
Writer(s): Collin Roberts
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