GOTH BOY AUTUMN

I'm tense and nervous
And it's breaking my heart
You're saying something
Shoulda said from the start
My ears are burning
But I live in my thoughts
You're back home drinking
All those forget-me-nots
Was it maybe something
That I said
Because now all these conversations
Have turned to lead
And
You've never been
On another boy's bed
And we keep it a secret
Cause I'm too fat to be fed
And

You remind me
Of that jet black leather
And a pretty little letter
Marked return to sender
Red arrows
Keep me under the weather
But
When I hit that snap
It makes me feel so much better
You say that I should
Probably forget her
So I'm counting calories
To fit in clothes
I can never
Fit in
We would be together
If you could overstate the fact
My face is fat
It will never come
It will never

I haven't ate since last winter

Pills are
In a box
And all of my new shoes
Are filled
With knots
I'm gonna start again
I'm gonna thin
I'm throwing out these meals
To fit
Right in
I might start to

I can't stand
To look like that
Again
I can't stand
To look like that
Again

I'm waiting for us
To fall apart again
I'm waiting for us
To collapse in your (My) hands
I'm waiting for that
Total relapse
So we can start all over
Just so we detach and I'm
Dead set
On your intentions
To drag me into this
And take
All my retention
Know that
We've been here before
So I'm gonna break out
All of my liquor
And my

Pills are
In a box
And all of my new shoes
Are filled
With knots
I'm gonna start again
I'm gonna thin
I'm throwing out these meals
To fit
Right in
I never thought before
I'd be
This way
Oh when I was a kid
I'd just decay
I use to cut the fat
Right out
My skin
I'd get it really close
To slither in
I might start to