Mixed Feelings (feat. Alyssa Grey)

Yeah
Why do I have these feelings?
Why these thoughts?
Huh?
Maybe cause I wasn't taught how to be myself
Maybe you either
Journey with me
Uh

They try to figure me, I'm movin on my own
Mind still playin tricks, never felt as home
Sacred place in this past, full of bad thoughts
Being forced to live, is like a catapult
I got anger inside, sharing you the truth
Journey down my path, take a wider view
I still hurt even in a shiny suit
Healthy in my life now, but grew up around this bad fruit
It's like the devil is after me with open arms
I don't receive his ways, I ain't goin long
And you can put a bounty on my head cause otherwise
I'm the boss of my life and you ain't authorized
Enough with all the jokes, this here is real stuff
Changing my make up stoned and sealed shut
If half the world really followed they own heart
No questions really would be asked, and homes won't be torn apart

I know that you'll make it through
But I still can see that light inside of you
And I know that you'll make it through
Cause I still can see the light inside of you
So come and turn the lights on

The reason I'm going off, I'm fed the fuck up
These voices laughin at me, so shut the fuck up
This ain't a game here, you won't reign here
I beat you once, a new man I done became here
I got my pain now, and I proclaim now
I been poppin since birth, no champagne now
It's inhumane now
This here is my domain
What you don't understand, you can't contain now
I learned the ins and outs, but it was hard for me
Every death and trial, it was causin grief
Can't trust my mind, it's keeps stalkin me
Tell my dad to give up and stop callin me
I'm feelin hot, but these walls they keep scorchin me
Can't continue my life, it keeps pausin me
To grasp that ALL SPARK, it's TRANSFORMIN ME
But wait, will that solve all of my problems

I know that you'll make it through
But I still can see that light inside of you
And I know that you'll make it through
Cause I still can see the light inside of you
So come and turn the lights on

You see I had my time and it's all good
It's just a thing of the past, I'm misunderstood
Cause every bit of pain, I done withstood
Put my foot forward, glad I made it up out the hood
There's certain things come, and certain things go
But how much you know is really gon show
My light used to be dim, but now it's on the rise
Look alittle closer, you could see a winner in these eyes
This here wasn't hard for me to admit
This road down misery is like a bad trip
You can't wave a wand, this ain't magic
My old life is extinct, like Jurassic
Of course I know it hurts, of course I know my worth
Deadly things I've seen, my eyes are now blurred
Live your life free
Never get deterred
Be what you wanna be
Keep ya mind alert

I know that you'll make it through
But I still can see that light inside of you
And I know that you'll make it through
Cause I still can see the light inside of you

It's transformin me!