I Don't Wanna Die / EastSide Symphony

I cross my heart and hope to
I lost my spark then pray I won't
Then saw the dark I know i'll
Brought it to light
I know I
I know I
I know I
Go go go go

I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
Nigga I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
Nigga I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
Nigga I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
Nigga I don't wanna die

I'mma be free from this shit when I
Long time coming been dreaming of this when I
Me and the lord got a meeting and shit when I
Ain't tweaking
I know I
I know I
I know I
Go go go go

I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
Nigga I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
Nigga I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
Nigga I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die
Nigga I don't wanna die

Promise to keep my name high when I
Promise to keep the same vibe when I
Promise my name up in lights when I
Forever
I know I
I know I
I know I

I know I gave ya'll all of me, who I used to be and who I oughta be
Ain't shit you could offer me when these demons won't get up off of me
And they corner me when they swarming me so horribly but it's all I see
When my depression hits and it performs for me
And i'll fake the smile cause it's the norm for me
This bad bitch won't stop calling me, my family like what's wrong with me
I barely ate and I barely slept, I'm feeling broken I'm still upset
I asked god why he ain't get me yet, so I mix some pills and my pillow wet
Shadows on my walls like a silhouette
Stopped feeling right when my feelings left
But still I say

The feeling of hustler's when touching the paper
The story connected ain't shit you could make up
This ain't a birthday but we got the cake up
Could hate on the game but don't hate on the player ughh

If she got body I slay her
Equal exchange a favor for favor
Got some more muscles a nigga got weight up
And I got the now and they catching on later ughh
Shepherd ave look what you made me
More about green less about people lately
I still got dreams, of having mercedes
More than I ever thought having a baby ughh
Ironic my exes they crave me, but going back to them nigga you crazy
I'm moving forward I'm watching me pay me
I wouldn't trade me for another don't ever mistake me

I single-handedly doubled my work
Then watched my status change tripled my worth
I want the medals for coming in first, with blessing to break generational curse

Member the crib had the roaches and rats
Member my bro said the walls smell like crack
Not where you started it's bout where you at
Testing your strength to go grind and adapt
I gotta find my own way out this trap
Center stage get em prepared for the act
I give em truth and these niggas all cap
Compare to me only mirror to match
I give her dick and she getting attached
Legs in the air or get hit from the back
Audience, the way we get it to clap
Squeezing me with her new kegels relaxed

Haaaa okayyy wassupppp shut uppppp
They getting money and I want someeee
Niggas taking risks where I come frommm
Pretty young thang give me yum yummm
On her knees hair in a bun bunnnn
Tongue got her shaking like a stun gunnn
Doing these moves can't be undoneee

I ain't the one that these people be used to
I never liked you I'm all bout my future
Don't want it later, I'll get to it sooner my life in these raps
You could skip all the rumors
I'm from the east where this hell look like heaven
In my age group bunch of steppers and felons
Bunch of loose women and niggas with weapons
And don't know the truth of where all of them heading

Live for the now I can't judge what we are
Past teenage years in my minds we went far
Coping with traumas, we born in the dramas
We making some dollars, and drawing some commas
And thought of a product, admits all the gossip
And should've been dead we defy all the logic
It gotta be church or the prayers from mommas
Or our stomach growing be used as reminders

Made it my business to make my life privileged
Don't give a fuck about niggas or bitches
Told myself to change the way it was written
My story gon see me evading the sentence
My skin color always gon make em remember
But identify em with the face of a winner
The stereotypes ain't gon break what I'm feeling
I like pretty bitches and flavor on chicken
Fuck your consensus I'm not a statistic
And no politician came this way to visit
I'm not in your picture I'm made in the image with rational thoughts
When I'm weighing decisions

Glass half full and my paper consistent
Don't need a genie to grant all these wishes
I'm shaking the town up and shaking the district
The cost is your mind come and pay me attention
Got the soul ties with the east and the gutter
That's my foundation not weak in my structure
No time for distractions ain't keeping your number
God gave me strength so that we never suffer
Can't be contained I'mma live how I wanna
Getting lil older my bones feeling younger
It's hot outside and all these bullets and weather
This hell feel so special and I got the one up
So whattup
Nigga