Déjà Vu

Sifting through
All the wreckage
Left from behind
My broken dreams

Seems I've missed
Having calculated
The place I thought
I'd be

Took a chance
Fought the good fight
Mostly avoiding
All the crud

But it still
Wasn't pretty
When I crash-landed
With a thud

Beware of the consequences
Of ordinary life
Behind every open window
Are bitterness and lies

You don't have a
Prayer of winning
You shouldn't even try
The moment you take
Your first breath's
The time you start to die

Well I just
Don't believe it
Even a single
Word you say

You are just
Being difficult
There must be
A better way

Takes a lot
Of a little something
To formulate a plan
First I walk
Then I'll run a little
I finally understand

RANT
Hit a nail
Hit a red light
Hit another human being
Right square in the face
Hit a deadline
And stop procrastinating
It's so easy to say, isn't it?
But the patterns
The patterns repeat themselves
I am not better
I am not improved
Until I jump
And oh I want to jump
So badly
1,2,3,4,5
Should I keep counting?
When's the right time?
Will you be there
If I fall?
If I miss?
If I make the mistake
Of believing
There is a chance?

Errar errar es humano
Ya todos lo sabemos
Pero el suplicio
De despertarnos
Sin haberlo intentado
Es el terror con el que
Convivimos a diario
¿Qué vas a
Saber vos sobre
La vida que vivo
Si sólo mirás
Tu propio reflejo?
¿Qué consejo me vas
A dar si hablás
Desde la comodidad
Desde el privilegio?
Prefiero caerme
Golpearme, estrellarme
Sufrir, levantarme
U quebrarme una vez más
A quedarme de brazos
Cruzados como vos

Familiar, The pain is
So familiar, the ache
Of never achieving
Of living in a
Never ending pause
Don't you get
Tired of it?
Aren't you annoyed
By your own mediocrity?
You rather be safe
Than happy
Silent than courageous
Why do I hang out
With you?
It's always the same
And I'm sick and tired
Of the excuses
Your excuses
My excuses
The victimization
Of the one who
Never ever dares
I'm gonna jump
Do not wait for me
Odds are not
In my favor
And that's ok