I Doubt (Stripped Version)

Doubt
The opposite of faith
The stubborn wings that refuse to fly
Because it doesn't know
What the air feels like

It seems unreasonable, doesn't it
It tells you that you're next step
Will not land you in a pothole
Meanwhile two steps forward
That pothole exists

You know
A while ago, my tea was doubt
I would take it early in the morning
To start my day
Meanwhile
Others would start their day with
Prayers and faith to make sure it ends great
But in truth, It made no sense to me
I was young,
engaged in other things But for God's word I had no energy
You see

I believed that your belief in heaven Clouded your judgement
And mystified your thoughts
So Can Someone tell me
How can a man be born of clay
How can an invisible being
Turn night to day
And more importantly
Or more especially
How can the mention of a name
Cure the sick and raise the dead
Huh

I was fed up with all the stories of Great men freeing slaves
And turning sticks to snakes
Meanwhile when it was my turn
To change the shame to praise
You didn't see me

So logically
The next thing would be
To settle with what the world
Had to offer me
Pleasure to pain, pain to pleasure.
The pressures of living became hard To measure
As they flowed like the oceans
And came to me daily
Like morning devotions

So in essence
I got tired of everything else
I got tired of struggling
Straining to keep up with trends
And new cycles
That served as guidelines
To prepare you for a broken
But normal lifestyle
I began walking the same path
I saw everyone walk on
As it became larger and larger
But in truth, this was a road i paved
For myself
As it became darker and darker
Until I thought I was lost

Then a whisper in me says

Your lack of belief
In that which is greater than you
Has made you weak
Don't be stuck in the meaningless cycle of what everyone wants to do
What everyone wants to be
I know we are all made in His image
But a picture can also be taken in different angles so
See different
Be different
Live different
Because he has made you different

A dwindling light began to form
A sheltering gleam began to call
The darkness I was once lost in now started to lose its opacity
There was courage to conquer
The resolve to be better
The quest for inner peace
Hope
Nah
It was much greater than that
Instead of doubt
There was now
Faith