Looking for Christmas

There's a man near the freeway on-ramp
The sign says he's looking for change
The lives we lead as strangers
Make the whole world feel so strange

I give him couple green pieces of paper
Ex-presidents faces and names
And he asks me whether cash could ever bring change

And all the carols in my ear
Feel disturbingly inept and insincere

I'm still looking for Christmas
Tell me what Christmas means
Tell me what's it worth
Singing peace on earth
When there's war on the TV screen?

I'm still looking for Christmas
I get the feeling that I'm on my own
Is there a Christmas star
To show me where you are?
Because the Wiseman all forgot the way home

Well, it's halfway through December
The end of a long, weird year
As far back as I can remember
The tension never felt this clear

Is this what my parents felt like?
Drinking bitter and sweet from a cup
Maybe this is what it feels like to grow up?

And the carols are still the same
But maybe ears are hearing different, somethings changed

I'm still looking for Christmas
Tell me how does Christmas work?
With our flags unfurled
Singing joy to the world
When there's so much pain and hurt

I'm still looking for Christmas
I get the feeling that I'm on my own
Is there a Christmas star
That could show me the way home

I hear the Christmas bells ringing
But I want more than just your shopping malls and caroling

I'm still looking for Christmas
Peace on earth could come and start right here
I want something real
More than just a feels
It's been a long and lonely year

I'm still looking for Christmas
I get the feeling that I'm on my own
Is there a Christmas star
To show me where you are
Because I'm hoping I can find my way home