Gaslight Past

Came up in a blue collared family
Dated a dancer from Milwaukee
Just graduated life was lovely
Then my dad died at a family party
Surrealism cut me deeply
I was doin' drugs and drinkin' weekly
I ran away from facing all my demons
I ran away from all my truest feelings

Feelin' like a puppet controlled by some strings
It's killin' me cuz no one can see the real me
And everywhere I go is the wrong place to be
I think I should go home but I don't know where it is

Met a girl first date did molly
Her beauty had me feelin' sunny
But her only fuckin friends were druggies
Yeah I used to call my honey honey
Got the ring and spent the money
Then she went and cheated on me
Tried to make her change I'm sorry
Been alone now three years workin' on me
I got me to blame for where I have came to
I still got a soft heart I'm not to blame for

Feelin' like a puppet controlled by some strings
It's killin' me cuz no one can see the real me
And everywhere I go is the wrong place to be
I think I should go home but I don't know where it is

And when you go on
You gotta know where you come from
Put yourself in my shoes stay true and livin'
Double down too be alone and trippin'
When all I could see was pain
I lost sight of destiny
Wonderful wild perfectly in process
Yeah this mess is me
I'm sorry for everyone that had to deal
With the shitty me
I bury it all in my heart

Feelin' like a puppet controlled by some strings
It's killin' me cuz no one can see the real me
And everywhere I go is the wrong place to be
I think I should go home but I don't know where it is