Words Never Said (feat. Operation Optimism) [Extended]

Cloudy days, cloudy brain, I won't ever be the same
Pull me, coach, I'm out the game, I don't think I'll feel again
Last time I fell for a girl, heartbroken, thought she would cure
Ghosted, feel so insecure, feeling uneasy, unsure

Gettin high every night, tell myself I'll be alright
How much longer can I lie with you right here by my side
Woke up to an empty bed, empty stomach, filled up head
Thoughts of dread, thoughts of being dead, thoughts of words I never said

Blame it on me, everybody does
Never had feelings for me, I can never trust
Blame it on me, everybody does
Never have feelings for me, I can never trust

I can't believe you left me like this
It's a constant back and forth
I just wanna see you rise, and you just want my demise
After all that was said, you still left me by my side

Gettin high every night, tell myself I'll be alright
How much longer can I lie with you right here by my side
Woke up to an empty bed, empty stomach, filled up head
Thoughts of dread, thoughts of being dead, thoughts of words I never said

Yeah, these words that I never said, yeah they roam inside my head
Staying up all night with the demons, they under my bed
In this world of lies, yeah, I can't escape the night
Tryna see these lights, with you right by my side

Thinking of all these thoughts in my head, thinking about everything I've ever said
To you, I'm sorry, you don't want me, really wish you could be right here beside me
Wish you could feel alright, but every time I try
It feels like somebody puts a gun to my head, ready just to take my life

I remember the day we met, you was the only thing that kept me out of my head
I'd do anything to be by your side, girl, I thought you were my ride or die
Now all I do is try to get high to numb this pain that I'm feeling inside
My thoughts get the best of me, so all I do is invest in weed

I told you I was broken, but I guess you thought I was joking
You said everything would be okay, but all you did was bring me down by the end of the day
Now you're just a memory that's trapped inside of me
Now you're just a memory that's trapped inside of me

Suicidal thoughts are my worst enemy
But sometimes they feel just like a friend to me
I lie awake at night, all I do is write
Lyrics about how I thought I was living the life

When in all reality, I just wish I could die
To end this fucking pain that I'm feeling inside
You say you love me, but I know that's a lie
All you wanna do is talk to the other guy, yeah, yeah

Yeah, you only kept me full of money and you acted as sweet as honey
In the end, you were so crummy, don't know why I got with yo ass
You look like a dummy at the end of the day
You made me look like a motherfuckin dummy

Getting high every night, tell myself I'll be alright
How much longer can I lie, with you right here by my side
Woke up to an empty bed, empty stomach, filled up head
Thoughts of dread, thoughts of being dead, thoughts of words I never said