Why's It Even Matter?

I traded my twenty's in for depression and a silent phone
I got a feeling that I'm probably going to die alone (die alone)
Took no bullshit go and carve it on my stone
Think I hate goodbye's just as much as Post Malone (Post Malone)
My homie got married I didn't even get a text (what?)
That shit hurt real bad but I wish them all the best
Family is the only thing that matters
Write it on my chest (on my chest)
I'm doing everything my younger self tried to manifest
Got a camera in the window keep the bitches out
Nobody reaches out no more what is that about? (what is that about?)
I care for all my people I never had a doubt
Now I can tally all my homies with a finger count
That's fine because I've been getting used to being by myself
Getting stronger and I'm finally working on my health
Thinking less about the people who ain't got the time
(Who ain't got the time)
Or the ones that didn't take the time to get to know me (yah)

So why's it even matter? (I got nothing left to say)
So why's it even matter? (can't change what happened yesterday)
So why's it even matter? (memories all fade away)
So why's it even matter? (alone I'm like a bird of prey)
So why's it even matter? (Keep taking like day to day)
What am I supposed to say?
(What am I supposed to say?)
I feel a different kind of way
(I feel a different kind of way)

Everywhere I go man it's all the same
There is the shy guy he's go something wrong with his brain
Why does being quiet have to be such a fucking pain?
If I was the loudest in the room would you feel the same?
Truth is I find it very hard to connect with anybody
I put my life on hold for this don't expect that from nobody
It's hard to keep morale when everyone is making more money
But I was happy sleeping on the floor dreaming of being somebody
Pursuit of happiness Cudi
Been through the trenches I'm muddy
Shot to the top of my study
Do what I want like Bad Bunny
Snuck away because you're not funny
My friends are like Always Sunny
Rap around you like a mummy
Most of you think I got lucky
Paid my dues my boots are bloody
Ride her like a horse and buggy
Fly it like I'm private Sully
Most people they hate or love me
Most people they hate or love me
Been like this since Okeechobee
Don't believe in me you dummy

So why's it even matter? (I got nothing left to say)
So why's it even matter? (can't change what happened yesterday)
So why's it even matter? (memories all fade away)
So why's it even matter? (alone I'm like a bird of prey)
So why's it even matter? (Keep taking like day to day)
What am I supposed to say?
(What am I supposed to say?)
I feel a different kind of way
(I feel a different kind of way)