Nonchalant

They don't look at me the same
But hey
Maybe they forgot when
I came out on top
But it's fine
I'll just start from the beginning
When they thought that I was nothing
And I just started out swinging
But now that they omit that I exist
I'll just go low
It's not quite what I had planned
I'll go with the flow though
And I don't think that I intend
To do this innately
But something I've been struggling with
A little too much lately is
I'm worried what I say
Will get took the wrong way
And I think that I rhyme too much
But I really can't do too much
Cause what if it don't sound too good
And everyone around me thinks that I should
Try something different
I don't want to do that
It's not like they care though
Their life don't revolve around
In my mind does
Like I'm their only aim
But after what was
I think I forfeit my name

Sometimes I feel like I'm public service
Cause I walk around all nervous
And give people what they want
Play it off all nonchalant
Cause I was taught to never flaunt
So being nice is what I brought
To the table
Now life's worse than fighting sable
Cause some people take advantage
And use it to deal damage
Dismally they were disrespectful visually
Now they miserably walk around
Wielding infantry
Cause they never know
When someone else without sympathy
Will come walking their way
So they shoot everyday
And now force of habit
For them to let everybody have
To me that's what describes
How people feel both sides
Using different methods in this race
To get to the same place
I don't know
I don't mean to dig to low
I just want to understand
Why sometimes it's so difficult to give a hand
Like we own our own brand
Couldn't risk being banned
By this shit we call society
We all got anxiety