My Childhood Experience

My birth 12/14/77
I was predestined
To walk in the laws of Heaven
And build with my brethren
But sin was my transgression
In order to receive a blessings
I had to learn a hard lesson
This is my confession
With the things that I'm stressing
Hopefully I leave an impression
With my story in this session
I was born to my parents
Both Steven and Joanne
South Bronx E.144th and St. Ann's
Where it all began
In the projects called Betances
My Life journey
Is where my God has planned this
Growing up in the 80's
Those days we're hazy
Crack Cocaine flooded the hood
It made people crazy
Those we're scary times
Teary eyes blurry in the mind
Confused in my thoughts
Had me delirious and blind
I was the oldest of 3
Before 2 more was born
Dysfunction in our family
Because the drugs has torn
Us apart from our parents
We was often neglected
They put drugs over us
We felt rejected
The house full of older people
Getting high on Crack
My younger Brother, Sister and I
Probably caught contact
Barely had food in the house
Not to be rude in the mouth
But like Nino Brown
I wasn't born with a
Silver spoon my mouth
It was a struggle time
For a child between 7 and 9
I did what I had to do
In order for us to survive

This song, it's not a woe is me
It's my childhood song
So, you would know it's me

This song, it's not a woe is me
It's my childhood song
So, you would know it's me

This song, it's not a woe is me
It's my childhood song
So, you would know it's me

Where I came from
And those days has passed
Letting you know that trouble times
Will not always last

My second verse
Be the other half of the first
Continue on my childhood
Because its twice as worst
I was sexually molested
My innocence was not protected
By a teenage boy much older than me
I felt dejected
The hell he was doing to me
His was all new to me
Touching me in the wrong places
Before I reach puberty
Then the news got out
And I was in such ashamed
Inner pain inner flames
Couldn't even mention his name
My Mother questioned me
And I couldn't even answer
Too embarrassed because the guilt
Was eating me up like it was cancer
I felt violated annihilated
And I hated
This feeling on the inside
It had me isolated
At the time my
Mother was confused and concerned
And learned that the soul
Inside her little boy has felt the burn
In elementary school I was acting out
Getting into trouble and fights
And I was wildling out
I was in special ed
Because I was a troubled youth
Being laughed at in school
It was nothing new
I remember I ran out in the streets
And got struck
By a car when I attempted
To run to the ice cream truck
It wasn't all well and fare
Although my Mother was on welfare
My father was too busy
Running the streets
For him to even care
So, excuse
If my story
Seems to be all over the place
Cause my mental journey comes
From a different time and space

This song, it's not a woe is me
It's my childhood song
So, you would know it's me

This song, it's not a woe is me
It's my childhood song
So, you would know it's me

This song, it's not a woe is me
It's my childhood song
So, you would know it's me

Where I came from
And those days has passed
Letting you know that trouble times
Will not always last

In conclusion
To show you how Great my God is
How patient my God is
And how Gracious my God is
My Brother and I
We we're unsupervised
Could've been snatched up
By a kidnapper
And taken by surprised
But my God
Had to assign Angels over us
Cause the neighborhood we lived in
It was dangerous
Peep this
One day we went to St. Mary's Park
In the middle of a shoot-out
Where the guns would spark
We didn't know what was going on
In retrospect to this song
Bullets flying in the air
One of us could've been gone
Alot of yelling and screaming
At Me and Toquawn
Get down to the ground
As the weapons were drawn
Thought it was fireworks
The shotty burst
Where the liar lurks
If I would've stayed standing
I probably would been
Lying in a hearse
My Mother freaked out
And reached out to my Father
Reality hit her hard
As she witnessed the horror
It was time
To get her kids
Out of the South Bronx
My Parents made arrangements
And send us to our Aunt
So, in the Summer of 86
We moved further uptown
In kinship foster care
My Auntie Leslie Brown
Every month
We used to see a Social Worker
Visitation with our parents
She was devoted worker
So, God pressed upon their hearts
To get their lives together
So, they checked into a halfway house
So, they can get clean and better

This song, it's not a woe is me
It's my childhood song
So, you would know it's me

This song, it's not a woe is me
It's my childhood song
So, you would know it's me

This song, it's not a woe is me
It's my childhood song
So, you would know it's me

Where I came from
And those days has passed
Letting you know that trouble times
Will not always last

The Bridge

This song, it's not a woe is me
It's my childhood song
So, you would know it's me

This song, it's not a woe is me
It's my childhood song
So, you would know it's me

This song, it's not a woe is me
It's my childhood song
So, you would know it's me

Where I came from
And those days has passed
Letting you know that trouble times
Will not always last



Credits
Writer(s): Dj Rebizzle For Re Beatz Productionz
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