Opened

I can't lie
I got a couple open wounds
Never let nobody in now I know
I can't turn nobody into a home
Knew me back when I made the corner of my room om om
I dissociate on my own
Find myself on my own planet and now I roam
My own emotions are hard to conquer alone
It's hard to tell after all this time if i've grown own own
Hating the way I, bottle myself in the day like
I might've changed to an AI
I stay awake in the late night
Healing my scars and it takes time
No one should help but I may find
Someone to come take away mine

Only time I open up is on an instrumental
Trynna be a better man, and I'm still not a fan
Hooked on being present for myself and I still never can
Heart inside my sleeve and I still switch it to the other hand
Can't even be honest with myself but I can understand
Couldn't even vent it out unless I make the mic the fan
Holding back the flood for way too long the pressures got me damned
No I don't blame you I blame the lesser grant

I don't know, oh oh oh oh
How they see me, oh oh oh oh
I hope they still, oh oh oh oh
Don't envy me oh oh oh oh
Sometimes It's hard to notice that I'm in too deep, oh oh oh oh
Caught in this black hole I think for infinity
I can't sleep I'm wide awake aye
Sometimes in your heart I hope that you're not too far away aye
My hands can only reach so far and now you can't find your way back
You're too far gone and I hate that
There's no points in regrets but there's still too much that I can take back
Ohh uhh ooo oh

I'm giving most of my trust to my people but I know its never a hundred percent
It's nothin' too personal, I just can't have no one close to the fence
My father told me go do what you need
Then in return you can do what you want, that's fine with me
I don't sub in on the second, I rather go straight for the punt
Put on my shoulders a couple of tons, I'm bout' to run for a couple of months
This like the seventh time
I'm up in somebodies daughter and never regretted it once
Most of my feelings negated
But that doesn't mean that I never seen it at least once
My inner inferno hot like the sun
I got the high ground with ten obi wans, okay okay
Talk up a play if you wanna be, okay
I'll remind you it only takes one of me
Got a couple of demons I conquered
I stay at the top of the hotel, they under me
I'm a alpha protector
You step to my lover then shit is not sweet like a honey bee
Give you hush treatment
One minute you got your face then another you missin' it suddenly
You a son to me, only my mind is keeping me company
Only thing that I want in my life is some peace of mind
Also to live in it comfortably
Everything you could want in the palm of your hands
At that point its not really that fun to me
Not a reason or meaning that comes to me
At that point I might think I might jump off the roof

I'd have given you my heart
If I was sure there was still one left
This is where the sadness ends

Yeah what you thought of
You think you workin' hard well tell em' that hugh workin' harder
I put in effort barely got time for somebodies daughter
Bitch we got more than alligators in this murky water, uh

Couldn't miss this, tell em' back in this bitch, aye
Got a inch less taking his meniscus, aye
Wouldn't be surprised if that shit in his wish list, aye
In a present he might get it back on Christmas, aye
I stay sophisticated, blast em' wit' a red coat, white wig
Think he got a conscience then he presto
Swear these minds compare me to the mans, you know I'm metro
I ain't come here for nobodies two cents or they ted talks
Tell em' that they breakin' under pressure like a frito lay, okay okay
I let em' off my foot see if they DOA, okay okay
And what's the ETA I'm like fifteen away, okay okay
Pull up the swat I'm way too pressured like my sodium too elevated
Shining like I'm Stephen King, got frozen up and I ain't even iced in
Speak into the mic I got some problems with this ricin
Bitch I'm bison, meets tyson, okay okay
Can't compare when I be up till three o eight

Yeah what you thought of
You think you workin' hard well tell em' that hugh workin' harder
I put in effort barely got time for somebodies daughter
Bitch we got more than alligators in this murky water