Holy Hell (feat. Francesco Del Giudice)

Crying in my bed at 5 am cause I hurt her.
I'm sorry I'm a fool but I'd be nothing
if you told me this is over.
So forgive me,
you're the reason I keep on smiling.
I've always told myself to stay strong,
but for now, the shakes won't be gone.
Tell me that you need me, too,
I'm so glad that I found you.
What would I do if I lost everything
that kept me from feeling blue?
I gave your name to this star
and I hope we still have each other
in each other's hearts.

You skipped your medication
the whole day,
you felt like ashes in the ashtray,
like a flicked cigarette
your lifeblood goes away
and you don't want to see another day.

I'm sitting in my bathroom paralyzed,
hoping that your words
have been emphasized.
My mother is outside
and asks me about you,
but eventually, I get frustrated
cause I don't know what to do.
All I can do now is reminisce,
while you're standing 40 minutes away
in your self-inflicted abyss.
I close my eyes to see clearer,
trying to recall the latest shimmer,
hoping that you don't get even thinner,
it's getting colder quicker,
it's almost winter.

You skipped your medication the whole day,
you felt like ashes in the ashtray,
like a flicked cigarette
your lifeblood goes away
and you don't want to see another day.

I think I'm in love with this pain,
because I'm in love with you,
and there is nothing
that drives me more insane
than knowing that you're feeling it too.
You're the one who drives my heart,
you can let it pulse or make it fall apart.
Why does this clot of desires
that aims for perfection
reveal itself only
in its destructive imperfection?

When you walk away
Whether it's nighttime or day,
my mind flies away
with you,
and I come to realize
that your absence is making me absent.