Imagination 3

Every day I wake up's an out-of-body experience
I'm disconnected from this reality, I'm delirious
My mind is hard to deal with, but I've been persevering it
I promise it's as bad as I'm saying
I'm fucking serious distorted, I'm tortured, my dreams were never supported
But now I'm being rewarded for all the songs I recorded
But it don't feel good like I thought it would, I'm empty and broken
And now I'm in a world of my own again, entering orbit

DRB, maybe I was made in somebody's imagination
Or maybe I'm only tripping off all the medications
When I look up to the sky, I try finding an explanation
But there's only stars and planets up there, there's no revelations
I'd give anything not to be in this fucking situation
If I told y'all my problems, that'd be too much information
I ain't even told no one in a one on one conversation
I'm alone and introverted, suffering in isolation

I'm on autopilot when I'm rapping disassociation
You could tell I'm absent-minded from a simple observation
That's a coping mechanism I developed for escaping all the traumatization
I acted out in desperation
I'm the opposite of happy, I mean there's no correlation
Nowadays, I function better when I'm high intoxication
That's the only way that I could feel some sort of stimulation
Otherwise, I'm cold and numb, and that's just me no imitation

What you see is who I am, it's not a characterization
Yeah, I'm sad, but it's deeper than that generalization
Better be careful with your words and take them into consideration
Everything I ever said out loud came through manifestation
Maybe everything's a game, maybe life's a simulation
If all this is predetermined, how can I have motivation?
Why the hell should I keep breathing
If my final destination isn't even my own choice
It's for God's entertainment?

Everybody leaves me like nothing
Why's it so easy to banish me to the past?
I guess because no one needs me
I won't get attached to anyone ever again, I'm grieving
Trust me love isn't a dream, no, it's a nightmare, it's misleading
It's a melting pot of mixed emotions, contradicting feelings
Some days, you feel so amazing other days, you feel like screaming
But I can't lie, it's still worth it, all the memories, I'm keeping
Keep me going and believing that I haven't reached my ceiling

On one shoulder, there's an angel, on the other, there's a devil
We all have a moral compass, I'm not anybody special
People think that I'm a freak, but fuck what they think, they're judgmental
They're all followers, I pay 'em no attention, I'm a rebel
I'll go zero to a hundred, even though I'm sentimental
Don't get on my bad side, I'll show you the demons that I wrestle
I could change up like my flow, already showed y'all, I got several
I'm just showing off at this point, letting y'all know that there's levels

(AM3) maybe I was made in somebody's imagination
Or maybe I'm only tripping off all of the medications
When I look up to the sky, I try finding an explanation
But there's only stars and planets up there, there's no revelations
I'd give anything not to be in this fucking situation
If I told y'all my problems, that'd be too much information
I ain't even told no one in a one on one conversation
I'm alone and introverted, suffering in isolation