CLARA LANE

(How much you smoke?)
(I don't know until I get tired)
(Till you get tired Thats real shit)
I dont got nannany next to me
But i got my sister and my neice
Thats really all i need
I been hurt for too long
I'm always smoking trees
So i can feel relief
I can't believe that everybody that you love
Eventually becomes deceased
This shit is fucked up
Who designed this shit
Why is life like this
I dont really care if they like this
At all
Asking god why he take her from me
But he only takes the best flowers
Picks them early
Take a rest in a place where the gates are pearly
Grow my hair out now its really curly
After you passed away everything changed
I lost my heart i lost my soul i even lost my brain
Escaping reality i was only playing games
Because the truth of this causality
Made me really go insane
I swear to god i snapped
I swear to god i would give my life
Just have to her back
Im glad to have her in my life
Even tho her time elapsed
But I guess thats just how life is
And I dont really care if like this
If you got a problem with me
Motherfucka fight this
While i fight addiction
Wondering why momma is always tripping
It's probably because she miss you too
It's probably because she realized that you was dying
Before i even knew
Nannany yes im still smoking trees
Im getting high as fuck
So i can feel like you is really next to me
The only real momma that i ever knew
She didnt teach me love i learned that shit from you
Samahjzea's doing good cartier and jaylah too
Baybay and Milasia growing up
I know they miss you too
And lately they been fucking up
And that is just what grief could do
And i dont really blame them
So i just blame myself
Cause im the oldest
But not in a position just to offer help
So instead im doing drugs
So my face Could melt
I even started college but i dropped out
And me and whats her face didnt work out
I been feeling like life is just a curse now
Heart been stepped on burned up and ripped out
Nannany yeah
She was really cripped out
Rolling 30 dirt gang 3s up hoes down
Attended your funeral we got you on a shirt now
I just wanna keep on going but it hurts how
I can never talk to you
Shit is getting worst now
And im just crying like a baby while im writing this
But i dont wanna cry no more
This is the realest shit i ever wrote
And these red eyes isnt from no blunt smoke
I was DASHING THRU THE HOOD
So they could feel my PAIN
Buying OUNCES For SURVIVAL
They Dont Know My Name
I am not ENOUGH
But like JAYDON im RELAXing
I got NO COMPLAINTS
I dont think they LISTENing
And i know that things could CHANGE
I just wanna SMILE but
The TRUTH got me feeling like im in the RAIN
WHY YOU CALLING MY NAME
NOTHING to even blame
Now im feeling way TOO HIGH
I aint even on a plane
And thats is just a couple songs
That i made with my friends
You should LISTEN too
I just made this song just for you
To show you that i improved
And I love you to the end
And without my nigga free
And my nigga ap
I would be dead in the street
I really had nothing to eat
I really had nothing to drink
And barely a place to sleep oh
Stressed out i had grey hair in my afro
Barely taking any photos
Contemplating suicide i was so close
Oh no
But this just facts don't be mad at me
Don't you worry lately i been feeling happy
You should've told me dont fall for love
Cause that shit would trap me
And Nothing but the soul could be everlasting
(I miss you Nannany Rest In Peace)