Sometimes

Mama's always feeling
Happens when I come home
But more when I'm leaving
Her and her sisters were left
Fatherless
The man didn't care that he was stealing

Healing don't come easy these days

Light up another, you can't change the color back
You reckon that someone cares, but no one asked
I learned the world through my mother's eyes
And she fears abandonment
At least sometimes

My father can't unsee
The ghost of a man
That he swore he'd never be
All these years and still he fears
He ain't different though he's tried
How the hell can he not tell
That that ain't even crossed my mind?

Light up another, you can't change the color back
Try to prove your place like you could make it last
Unworthiness inherited
And gone-too-soon confidence

I point the finger
It sure feels better that way
I keep on running
From the blood that's in my veins

I see it all a different way
Jacob was a deceiver
And he gave me my name