Ode

Sometimes I wonder
If we were to slow down
Where could we have been?
But now my stomach turns
When I see your face
I cannot sleep when I am dreading
Love how you will hurt me next but

Progress is moving on
Now I've played the game
I'm not lending help
No doubt you'll look to somebody else
In the future, despite the loss

And at the end of the day
This was meant to work both ways
But when I cared for you
All I received was a blunt and annoyed face
Too much time was spent in trying to keep you satisfied
Not enough was spent in realising that this was never love at all

I don't know what's happening upstairs
But I'm willing to bet it's at my expense
The floorboards are buckling beneath the weight
And I don't dare tempt fate
I'll heal

It takes a lot to come around
But what I've lost can yet be found
Your absence might have burned me
But my fire won't be put out
But where could I have been
If I pre-read where you aimed your target
I'd have more time to run through it

The take-away from disaster
Now the tie is cut hereafter
There's now one less obstacle
From "happy ever after"

I don't know what's happening upstairs
But I'm willing to bet it's at my expense
The floorboards are buckling beneath the weight
And I don't dare tempt fate
I'll heal

And if I ever speak of love
And if I ever speak of love
And if I ever wish for love
By God I hope to not be reacquainted with this pain

Thrive on your own
Fuck

Look around
At the friends that would help you when they're not around
Your marks will fade in time

Your marks will fade in time
Your marks will fade in time